hello?
Wow. The world has moved on, but LJ is still here. Thank god.
this has been the most crazy, scary, sad and stressful 6 months of my life. I have died literally a hundred times since i last posted. But I'm such a stubborn bitch that i just keep coming back. Things are really weird now. I am a widow at 26, and I cant get close to anyone without feeling horribly guilty. I can sometimes hear Steve commenting on my life, and decisions that i make. Crazy??? Step into my shoes for a minute, and you will see that it's not so insane to hear the dead talk. The dead are actually very opinionated, and hate to be ignored. But, speaking from experience, sometimes you have to. Because the reality is that your conscious can get the best of you if you let it. And I for one am not going to drowned in that toxic sea. I just want to live, and feel something that isn't crippling sadness, fr more then 5 fucking seconds......
this has been the most crazy, scary, sad and stressful 6 months of my life. I have died literally a hundred times since i last posted. But I'm such a stubborn bitch that i just keep coming back. Things are really weird now. I am a widow at 26, and I cant get close to anyone without feeling horribly guilty. I can sometimes hear Steve commenting on my life, and decisions that i make. Crazy??? Step into my shoes for a minute, and you will see that it's not so insane to hear the dead talk. The dead are actually very opinionated, and hate to be ignored. But, speaking from experience, sometimes you have to. Because the reality is that your conscious can get the best of you if you let it. And I for one am not going to drowned in that toxic sea. I just want to live, and feel something that isn't crippling sadness, fr more then 5 fucking seconds......