(no subject)
This has been more then I've ever felt. I'm tired, shaken, angry....sad beyond the meaning of the word. I'm afraid to scream, but that is what I really want to do. I want to scream to the world that this is not fair, not fuckin FAIR!!!!! And this is a safe haven, because no one reads this shit anymore. I am afraid to think about saturday. The sorrow will have weight, and it will suffocate me. Promise me that this isn't a farce. That there can be life beyond suffering.....maybe even love. Maybe a connection that makes us realize that we are small, and alive. More then what we should be. Sometimes I wish that I would crack. But I guess that I don't know the sound of that.