Jan 18, 2005 18:47
This is kind of along the topic of my friend's journal. Just some thoughts.
People who commit suicide make the choice to leave their friends, for reasons that really have nothing to do with their friends at all. But their friends and family are the ones who have to deal with the reality of living the rest of their lives without that person. I believe it is harder for the people left behind then it is for the person that does it. They have made the decision not to deal with things and they are obviously ok with that. Because they are living the life they think is not worth living, and all everyone else can really see is how good the person is, how special. Not how truly troubled a person has to be to get to the point where nothingness is a viable option, to disengage the primal instinct to survive at all costs. No one can truly understand another person's inner most thoughts.
Suicide is the cheater's way out of dealing with life. It is a weak thing to do. I know quite a few people who have taken that road, and as much as I love them I have lost all respect for them. We have the ability to seek help. We have the ability to change the hand that we are delt, to make ourselves happy.
Most people confuse teen angst with depression, and it makes me sick. Most teenagers hate their life. Hate it to the point where they cut themselves and do drugs and some even attempt suicide. The reason so many do not succeed is because they really don't want to die, they are just crying out for help. MOST self-destructive behavior is a cry for help.
And most kids lives are not as bad as they think they are. But we are very self-absorbed when we are growing up, and our own lives are always the worst.
I may sound like a dick, but I have been that kid crying out for help in many self-destructive ways. Now I am smart enough to know better.
God bless the souls of those we lost. May they find whatever it was they were lacking in Life, in Death.