4 years since last entry
Wow...
I don't even know where to begin. I am listening to Postal Services' 10 year Edition. I've had this account for 10 years! I had my eyes closed ready to go to sleep and I decided tonight I'd listen to some Postal Service... You Live Journal and Postal Service came into my life around the same time. I realized tonight that I haven't been doing anything to record my thoughts or ideas since Nicole and I broke up. In fact I erased my Tumblr which I guess had my thoughts and ideas in it. Its funny the last entry in this account was about Allison. You've missed 4 years of my life. So much has changed. I left SUFS and started working for this place called the Nerdery... I met a girl who I thought was the answer to my questions about love, but like all things in my life I find a way to mess things up or take for granted a good thing. In this case I did both and well I can't go back and change what has happened. It was a good run with Nicole. First girl to live with me and even move all the way to Minnesota where I now live. Long story short, in the last four years I've been working hard on this software development thing. Its working out pretty well and just like before with Allison things moved way too fast for my personal life to keep up with and a relationship suffered again.
Anyway, the postal service album reminded me today of being in North Carolina 10 years ago. It was a great time with my closest friends and family. I cut it short though because I wanted to come home and spend what I want to say was some reason for fireworks... I want to say it was forth of july? But at the same time I feel like it was winter time? I'm not sure but I came home because I wanted to spend time with Staci. I guess that there is something to say about that and how whatever this feeling is I have now will pass. I've loved and lost before. I'm not ready to love again until I really truly have my priorities straight. I need to find balance.
This weekend felt balanced. For the first time since I moved to Minnesota, I had what felt like a group of friends just wanting my time and it felt great. I didnt get a chance to get any of my car projects done, but that stuff can wait because I've learned to just allow things like friendships to happen. Not force them, but take in the opportunities to create and re-enforce them.
I don't even know where to begin. I am listening to Postal Services' 10 year Edition. I've had this account for 10 years! I had my eyes closed ready to go to sleep and I decided tonight I'd listen to some Postal Service... You Live Journal and Postal Service came into my life around the same time. I realized tonight that I haven't been doing anything to record my thoughts or ideas since Nicole and I broke up. In fact I erased my Tumblr which I guess had my thoughts and ideas in it. Its funny the last entry in this account was about Allison. You've missed 4 years of my life. So much has changed. I left SUFS and started working for this place called the Nerdery... I met a girl who I thought was the answer to my questions about love, but like all things in my life I find a way to mess things up or take for granted a good thing. In this case I did both and well I can't go back and change what has happened. It was a good run with Nicole. First girl to live with me and even move all the way to Minnesota where I now live. Long story short, in the last four years I've been working hard on this software development thing. Its working out pretty well and just like before with Allison things moved way too fast for my personal life to keep up with and a relationship suffered again.
Anyway, the postal service album reminded me today of being in North Carolina 10 years ago. It was a great time with my closest friends and family. I cut it short though because I wanted to come home and spend what I want to say was some reason for fireworks... I want to say it was forth of july? But at the same time I feel like it was winter time? I'm not sure but I came home because I wanted to spend time with Staci. I guess that there is something to say about that and how whatever this feeling is I have now will pass. I've loved and lost before. I'm not ready to love again until I really truly have my priorities straight. I need to find balance.
This weekend felt balanced. For the first time since I moved to Minnesota, I had what felt like a group of friends just wanting my time and it felt great. I didnt get a chance to get any of my car projects done, but that stuff can wait because I've learned to just allow things like friendships to happen. Not force them, but take in the opportunities to create and re-enforce them.