Me and Grandpa's views
Last night Grandpa got me and asked me to come watch something with him. So I obliged, not knowing that he was going to have me watch something about "The Mormons" and their alleged "polygamous acts". Now, don't get me wrong, I love grandpa, but him trying to feed me anti-mormon things, just because a few cracked-pot jokers think incest and polygamy's the way, makes me upset. I know who I am, and where my life is going, at least in terms of my faith, so I don't need help re-deciding things. I'm happy where I am with my faith and my beliefs and it's only causing me frustrations that he did that. I know he thinks he's doing me a favor, but... it only upset me. Another reason why it upset me so much was because I couldn't tell him that the "Latter-Day Church of Christ" is not the LDS church that I practice in, and that the church no longer practices polygamy. I couldn't bring myself to get up, tell him I wasn't interested and walk away. If I can't tell Grandpa, some one that's suppose to be close to me, that the anti-stuff on TV doesn't hold any interest for me, that I'm happy with my beliefs, that I love my God and Savior, then will I be able to tell people on the street, people who may be one of God's 'ready to harvest' fruits? I know what my answer is now, "Yes, I would", but I'm hoping to change that into something as sure as my testimony of Christ. We made sour cream noodles today. It was a fun process for me, and something that requires a few people to do it, so I'm going to try to do it with my family when I get back home. Also, making dinner with Christina the two times we did has helped me to realize that I can take a lot off of mommy dearest's shoulders by cooking once or twice a week for the family. I think I"ll make that one of my Personal Progress goals, maybe as a ten hour project. And it will really help out mum. My scripture reading has sort of flopped while I have been here, but I'm hoping to pick that right back up again. I'm pretty sure I won't have the Book of Mormon entirely finished by the end of summer, but I'm going to read enough to satisfy myself and Heavenly Father. I know my floundering in my thoughts and actions has created a fault in my relationship with Heavenly Father, but I also know that I'm getting better, which helps with me wanting to get better. I prayed that I'd see some results, and I'm seeing them. Proof that I couldn't live without praying. I swear I am NOT obsessed with Andrew, it's just he's said some things and done some things that I've taken a special notice to, and he inspires me to be a better person. I met him in February on an LDS chat room. At first we just chatted like two people getting to know each other, but then it continued to come to the point where he says *kisses* and *huggles* and he gave me his cell phone number, and we text message a lot. He makes me so happy- not in an 'in love' way, but, just knowing him has made me a better person, and isn't that the type of people I should be around. I don't know... he's just awesome. I'm both glad and sad about him leaving on his mission. I know I'll miss him.