I don't know what to do.
I really wish I knew what has been bothering me for months...
My group of friends at school has been splitting.
Some people I've been close to I've been growing distant from them.
With some of the friends I really like, I sometimes wonder if I'm annoying around them.
The group doesn't really feel like family anymore... Lots of loud and immaturity. (some days I don't feel like being around the group anymore)
I've been talking to people a lot less, and sometimes I sit somewhere and do something by myself (doodling)
I've thought of so many ideas for drawings I really want to draw, but I feel like taking a hiatus (probably not now, since it's Christmas season)
So many people are feeling sad, and it's slowly starting to rub off on me.
I've seen too much of a new thing, and it's really overwhelming me. I wish I was cool with it, but when I see it, I think "is this real?"
(I don't like being specific, because I don't want to offend anyone
It feels like a mix of these are bothering me, and the feeling hasn't really gone away (usually when a combo of minor things are going on, I feel sad for a few days and move on, but it's been lasting for a long time.)
I also would remember getting lots of hugs in one day in this group. Nowadays, on average, I probably get only a fraction of it. (1-3 hugs)
(I don't want to be selfish, but this feels like it's saying something without words, where did the love go?? ;A; )
Meanwhile, on some good news:
I started teaching Japanese in my anime club! I thought I did a crap job, but according to everyone, they learned a lot! oAo
I look forward to the next lesson! (*>∀<)ノ
Oh, and has anyone heard of any Christmas cosplay meet-ups??
I really want to go!! (I would love to lead one, but I tried once and failed) ;A;