this is where i hide my powere, this is where i become free..............my confession
it's a lonely world... we all live in it but still don't see the lack of real understanding we share. the pain, the things we take for granted...the negative things that make the good things. we've all heard it, the yin and the yang, seen the damage....... yet it's always taking the easy way out is the hardest way. build up and self pitty end u up in some life tragedy such as prison or handicapped or the final easy way out which everyone has thought about for longer than they should. and after that it isn't up to this world what ur fate is. if u really have no choice...truly.... then you can rest in peace, thats gotta be the hardest thing when it's best way. .....now, suffer some things u have already put up with and weren't exactly the what u would like, but nothing to sweat over. u get bored...u get bored of that.....it goes on until it's no longer having fun when u have done it all. all the boredom becomes lonely......but the loneliness still just doesn't give us enough time to remember...and the negative things add up so high u have to decide wheather or not it's time to accept it as the best thing u have, or betray it and try to escape. when u betray those kind of things..... u might as well keep lying till u die. i've never been so sure about anything else... i've thought i was, i have tasted real pain and i'de be weak and stupid both to let it happen again. what happens after i don't think about this all the time is just more of the shit life gives u, i'll never be happy 24/7. anyone who thinks that is fake and clueless, everyone knows how it goes. but it takes more to admit it...and not just live with it. if u choose too, i have nothing but dirt to kick behind me at u for thinking tv is gonna jump in and prevail. life sux, no matter what. anyone who says it doesn't, they don't deserve to exist anywhere god puts them. it has to be shitty, or it's beyond shitty, beyond words. *sigh* i hope pple do themselves a favor and take the time to really appreciate everything. no help from church or drugs or tv or music. suffering...i don't always, but i am now, and i see alot of pple getting better and worse..... so which is which isn't my judgement. stop relying on things besides others, trust urself, quit being so fucken selfish... and the last thing... don't act like u don't when u know u do u fucken liars. u can't hide from some things.