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I'm getting really sick of all of these stupid memories coming back up to the front of my mind and getting me all riled up. It's not good for anybody.....I'm really getting sick of lashing out at my best bud Christina (I'm really trying to get better about this, and it's coming along....I don't want her to think that I hate her. I don't. But at least I'm trying to be a better person towards her), No one deserves to be treated badly, and me going through everything that I've gone through should really know better than to do and say half of the things that I do.
I just hope I can get past all of this crap and be a better person. I'm trying to do it without the help of meds as I am afraid that Meds will make it worse for me and everyone else involved.
But, I'm really starting to rethink that decision. Maybe I should go see a doc....maybe there is something they can put me on that doesn't have super harsh side effects. The bottom line is I'm really sick and tired of being depressed, and it making everyone else around me suffer too....I don't know.
Any thoughts on my situation from anyone would be appreciated.
I just hope I can get past all of this crap and be a better person. I'm trying to do it without the help of meds as I am afraid that Meds will make it worse for me and everyone else involved.
But, I'm really starting to rethink that decision. Maybe I should go see a doc....maybe there is something they can put me on that doesn't have super harsh side effects. The bottom line is I'm really sick and tired of being depressed, and it making everyone else around me suffer too....I don't know.
Any thoughts on my situation from anyone would be appreciated.