murr

[spacedoobie]

I realized tonight that the reason I never update is that I care too much about what other people think. Or what they may think, or what I think they might think. I avoid posting because generally speaking I would rather be miserable than burden someone else with any of my bullshit. And I'm getting really sick of it. I'm like a walking hypothesis.

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[arborwin]

Sadly, the ability to speak intelligently also usually comes with an overactive sense of self censorship. Don't worry about it, Rur. You've always been coherent and you don't burden your friends, there's nothing wrong with speaking up if you're genuinely upset about something. We like to know how you are and what you're doing :B

Anyway, for the most part, people roll with this shit to an incredible degree. You've already seen this social function in action. Most of the time, it's deserved--normal tolerance that keeps friendships going, social lubrication in its original form.

Too bad we've had too many experiences with people who didn't deserve the tolerance they received, and gave none in return. That really fucks with your ideals and makes your already overactive neurosis even more difficult to deal with. But you're not one of these bad people at all. SO FAR >:( WATCH YOURSELF NIGGER. No really you're fine, Rur, lol. We're all so neurotic, we know how you're feeling, and frankly I forget how old you really are. It's pretty normal for you to be thinking about this stuff at your age. Also, no one has sane parents :( trufax. What passes for a mediocre human being makes an atrocious parent, and most people are mediocre. that's so cynical but that also allows you to forgive them I guess, so I find it a bit of a relief 8D whatever.

Keep posting, the hive doesn't care for your feelings but we demand them for inspection 8U

[arborwin]

BAWWWWW THE WORLD DOESN'T LOVE ME COMPLETELY BAWWWWWWWWW

[spacedoobie]

I dunno, man. I mean, I have some friends with awesome parents. Of course, then again, I see two parents that are capable of functioning together in the slightest and I immediately think OMG PARENT OF THE YEAR, so my definition is clearly a bit skewed~

Thanks a lot, snarb. It's really nice to hear that. I mean, I would generally assume that about, well, damn near anyone and anything, but it's nice to hear 'You're a better person than Soshi,' put into words. <333

[arborwin]

but it's nice to hear 'You're a better person than Soshi,' put into words. <333

everyone deserving the comment should hear it at least once a year :((( I just wanted you to know that just because some people are insane cunts doesn't mean you can't vent a bit on your lj. I'm not sayin I'm just sayin.

Yeah, it's easy to think parents that aren't yours are great 8D< But it's just not the same. I think my parents are great honestly, but they also drive me insane. My mom can make me want to throw myself off a bridge with one comment, so that's just how it works even if they're "good." It's just like that for everyone.