May 29, 2005 23:33
Tonight was the first time I've felt like crying in months.
Perhaps I'm turning slightly soft now, or perhaps I'm losing my sanity. By rights, I shouldn't feel like this now. I can't find anything wrong with my life now.
We (humanity) are the wanton, bastard child, pulling the wings from the beautiful butterfly we call the world. We (humanity) have blood on our hands, which only one thing can clean away - our realisation at what we've done.
Humans have fucked up this world. We've destroyed, butchered, murdered, slain, slashed, burnt, tarnished, and ruined everything beautiful all for the sake of what? Some green pieces of paper with dollar signs on. Right now, I want to scream at those who kill animals for the sake of medicine, or for hunting. I want crucify them, and torture them to their death. There is only one place for those kind of "people" (if I dare give them that name): The stairway to hell.
I can't blame this on hormones, or missing Alicia, or any external factors. This is me, finally realising just to what extent we've corrupted what God has given us.
I feel sick to my very soul at what WE have done. Even those who haven't directly influenced the destruction are guilty. Guilty of indifference, of standing to one side is as bad as actively taking part in a crime, remember?
There is no salvation for us - perhaps realising what you've done and making an effort to repair it slightly may lessen your punishment when Judgment Day comes.