what to do, what to do.
i have to say, that writing in here is a lot more fun then writing in xanga. and its addicting. so.. tonight i went bowling, in hopes that i would see timmy. by the time that i got there, he wasnt. i dont know if he was there earlier or something, but the point is he wasnt there when i went. i miss him so much. and i know that i could have him if i wanted, but really, do i want a relationship just based on sex? i know that i would want more then that, and i dont think that he does. actually, i KNOW that he doesnt want anymore then that. but am i willing to give something like that up just to be w. him physically? he had some thing up about tara not to long ago, how he wanted to be her BF or something, just a week after he told me that he didnt want a relationship until hes in his 20s or something, but now the whole tara thing is gone, and it kinda makes me wonder. does he now just not like her anymore? has something else changed? he confides everything in me, and i dont understand why. at work, we bearly got along without killing each other. some lady came up to us one night and told us that we were a great couple and she could tell we were "in it for the long run" or something stupid like that. if random people that we dont even know can see something, how is it that neither of us can. for as long as i can remember, our co-workers have made comments about the two of us, but i dont know..
::UPDATE::
i just now found out that im going to be spending a night in PARIS!!!!!! our flight is having a layover for a whole freaking night. I cant wait to see france!!!! all of this trip talk makes me wish even more that dave could come, but a) jon doesnt know him and doesnt feel real comfortable w. him coming and all, and b) hes not a student (college) so i dont know how that would work out w. the whole, going thru a student thing. :-/ one day ill get to travle everywhere with that boy!
ok, which kinda leads to another timmy point. like, i could never see myself going out w. timmy. we'd kill each other. and i know its not like im going to marry the boy. i could very easily see myself being with dave forever. not timmy. :-/. krysta what do i do?!?!?!?! do i sleep with timmy, just to sleep with him, and see where it all leads to, or do i do nothing, and sit around and wait? (since i know your the only one reading this!) ahh what the hell.. i hate everything. can nothing go right?
::sigh france.. cant wait.::
::UPDATE::
i just now found out that im going to be spending a night in PARIS!!!!!! our flight is having a layover for a whole freaking night. I cant wait to see france!!!! all of this trip talk makes me wish even more that dave could come, but a) jon doesnt know him and doesnt feel real comfortable w. him coming and all, and b) hes not a student (college) so i dont know how that would work out w. the whole, going thru a student thing. :-/ one day ill get to travle everywhere with that boy!
ok, which kinda leads to another timmy point. like, i could never see myself going out w. timmy. we'd kill each other. and i know its not like im going to marry the boy. i could very easily see myself being with dave forever. not timmy. :-/. krysta what do i do?!?!?!?! do i sleep with timmy, just to sleep with him, and see where it all leads to, or do i do nothing, and sit around and wait? (since i know your the only one reading this!) ahh what the hell.. i hate everything. can nothing go right?
::sigh france.. cant wait.::