Every year that I blow out birthday candles
or new year's eve when the clock strikes 12am,
I always wish for the same thing.

 Fuck everything I said.

I'm not that strong.

and so it ends ( Read more... )

screw everything i've said before.

I FUCKING FINALLY HAVE SOME CLARITY.
It just took at while to kick in.

lessons learned.

After a weekend full of ups and downs, an extra snow day (!), and a visit to my super awesome gynocologist (love her!), my world finally has a little bit of harmony.

I've found the balance I was looking for. And it includes him.

This is an interesting twist to the story.
an unexpected source of strength and a test in restraint.

Sometimes I feel like I'm not as interesting as I used to be or compared to others ( Read more... )

oh wait, now that I think about it ( Read more... )

I can easily say I had the best Sunday morning in a long time.
The only thing missing was some old motown records and a hot cup of peach tea.

i'm ready.
i'm ready to put in the work.
i'm ready to stop lying.
to myself and to others.
to stop searching for perfection,
when i know i, myself,
am full of flaws.
i'm ready.