Depression is what I am.
So, there are things that make me feel down.
Like working in three different places, one of which is about 30 km from home, and not having a driving licence for a month because of an accident I had in January.
Like having to quarrel thrice a day with both my parents for the sillies reasons, such as hair on the bathroom floor and dinner time.
Like having so many extra meetings at school (the one which is 30 km from home, naturally) and so many extra lessons at dancing school, for example on Sunday afternoon (when one should rest) from 2:30 p.m. till 6:30.
Like not being able to finish a single fanfiction while I keep having ideas for new fics I won't have time to write anyway.
Like my mother underlining that she won't come to the dancing school final show in June because I didn't attend a single play of hers last December, but me still thinking that, while I don't really care because I don't need my mother to be in the audience at 28, she still is the mother and I'm still the daughter, and that should count for something. Such as not acting childish expecting me to be a grown-up.
Like I'm really tired of all the shit that keeps falling on me and all the illnesses and problems. Life just sucks too much most of the time.
So yes, my life sucks and I'm depressed. Not that anyone should know. I just felt I never really write this down on my lj, but I think about it 24/7, so maybe I should just let it all out sometimes.
But there are so many happy and positive things in my world, such as... Erm...
So let's not talk about this anymore.
/emo rant
Like working in three different places, one of which is about 30 km from home, and not having a driving licence for a month because of an accident I had in January.
Like having to quarrel thrice a day with both my parents for the sillies reasons, such as hair on the bathroom floor and dinner time.
Like having so many extra meetings at school (the one which is 30 km from home, naturally) and so many extra lessons at dancing school, for example on Sunday afternoon (when one should rest) from 2:30 p.m. till 6:30.
Like not being able to finish a single fanfiction while I keep having ideas for new fics I won't have time to write anyway.
Like my mother underlining that she won't come to the dancing school final show in June because I didn't attend a single play of hers last December, but me still thinking that, while I don't really care because I don't need my mother to be in the audience at 28, she still is the mother and I'm still the daughter, and that should count for something. Such as not acting childish expecting me to be a grown-up.
Like I'm really tired of all the shit that keeps falling on me and all the illnesses and problems. Life just sucks too much most of the time.
So yes, my life sucks and I'm depressed. Not that anyone should know. I just felt I never really write this down on my lj, but I think about it 24/7, so maybe I should just let it all out sometimes.
But there are so many happy and positive things in my world, such as... Erm...
So let's not talk about this anymore.
/emo rant