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[sourapplekicker]

I feel like I'm back in high school.
I just want to graduate and get the hell out of here.
Not that I don't love Buffalo, or my apartment, or Buff State...
But... it's lonely here.
Lonely here for the second largest city in the state.

At least back home I have family.
I miss my daddy. And I really like Cindy.
And Patty, my neighbor.
My brother and grandmom...

And then there's AJ, and his family.
So, maybe they're mostly all crazy and messed up...
Welcome to family life?
...but at least they're THERE.
At least we all do things and go places.
Even just hanging out or eating breakfast together.

I'm part of the family there.
I feel welcome there now.

I can't wait to get married and have kids.
When family and professions cancel out the friend factor.
Because let's face it...
Having friends has never been my strong point.
...and now...
for the few I've managed to keep...
I'm not their strong point.

I liked it better when I was crazy and drunk all the time.
At least I had friends.
At least I did things.