Doctor's visit's and psychotic build-ups
I've missed work on Saturday and Monday and it's Tuesday and today I went to the doctor and we were talking about my congestion and possible bronchial problems and he starts up with "So the last time you were here I put you on paxil" and I said "Yeah, but I was looking for a more cognitive way of getting past my problems"
So he drew a circle that symbolized me. Then he drew 8 arrows pointing at the circle (me). The arrows represented my everyday problems. We talked about that for a while and then he jumped my script up to 20mg of Paxil. Sooooo, I guess I'll get that tomorrow.
I cried in the doctors office with Dr. Lowe and then cried a lot afterwords. Travis and I got in to a fight and I smahed Travis's ashtray (that he made when he was very small and unconstructive) on the ground and it was NOT because I'm mad at him and trying to destroy something he made. I was just throwing whatever and that "whatever" just so happened to be his ashtray. HAHA am I a bitch?
Today has been weird. But now i'm at Kimi's with Kimi and Tara and I feel better. Tara works at that doctors office and it's cool and all. tara is so funny. she was there for my b-day party and it was a lot of fun.
I think i've gotten myself too drunk to type. Sorry world. I miss Kaila and Erica.
I hate when people ask me "what's wrong" and I can't answer that question. What should I say??? There is something inside of me that makes me angry and upset and I cry and I don't know why except that I'm just not feeling good in the membrane. Sorry people. but I love you all.
I love Seth
and I love Travis.
So he drew a circle that symbolized me. Then he drew 8 arrows pointing at the circle (me). The arrows represented my everyday problems. We talked about that for a while and then he jumped my script up to 20mg of Paxil. Sooooo, I guess I'll get that tomorrow.
I cried in the doctors office with Dr. Lowe and then cried a lot afterwords. Travis and I got in to a fight and I smahed Travis's ashtray (that he made when he was very small and unconstructive) on the ground and it was NOT because I'm mad at him and trying to destroy something he made. I was just throwing whatever and that "whatever" just so happened to be his ashtray. HAHA am I a bitch?
Today has been weird. But now i'm at Kimi's with Kimi and Tara and I feel better. Tara works at that doctors office and it's cool and all. tara is so funny. she was there for my b-day party and it was a lot of fun.
I think i've gotten myself too drunk to type. Sorry world. I miss Kaila and Erica.
I hate when people ask me "what's wrong" and I can't answer that question. What should I say??? There is something inside of me that makes me angry and upset and I cry and I don't know why except that I'm just not feeling good in the membrane. Sorry people. but I love you all.
I love Seth
and I love Travis.