My fault
So it's proabably my fault. Maybe I'm just really bad at reading people or really bad at assuming things are somthing that they're not. Either way, this hasn't turned out the way I had thought or hoped, I guess. Maybe it's my fault for believing that I could handle all this and God might have seen that. Maybe I decieved myself.
Either way, I can't handle sitting in my dorm room crying about something that....I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HECK IT WAS OR IS OR.....I HATE THIS!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY...
I feel like an idiot. It's scary to think I opened myself up to something that wasn't "it." What else have I done that with then?
How did I let myself get hurt? I spend so much time telling everyone else to make sure things are in order then this crap happens to me...what a good example, Erica. How does so much change over the course of one phone conversation?
The thing that ticks my off the msot is that when I go home in a couple of weeks I'm going to have to tell all of these people WHATEVER. That pisses me off because I never even told anybody at home...that's not fair at all. Why can't I ever get the chance to actaully tell my friends what's going on with me before they've already discussed it amongst themselves? That's just not fair.
I quit
Either way, I can't handle sitting in my dorm room crying about something that....I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HECK IT WAS OR IS OR.....I HATE THIS!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY...
I feel like an idiot. It's scary to think I opened myself up to something that wasn't "it." What else have I done that with then?
How did I let myself get hurt? I spend so much time telling everyone else to make sure things are in order then this crap happens to me...what a good example, Erica. How does so much change over the course of one phone conversation?
The thing that ticks my off the msot is that when I go home in a couple of weeks I'm going to have to tell all of these people WHATEVER. That pisses me off because I never even told anybody at home...that's not fair at all. Why can't I ever get the chance to actaully tell my friends what's going on with me before they've already discussed it amongst themselves? That's just not fair.
I quit