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I had a dream about my ex last night. God, I haven't thought of him in forever. The dream itself was nothing special, but it did leave me with a weird feeling and a realisation. The reason why it did not work was becasue I was embarassed of him. Right fromt he start the relationship was kept a secret. Not becasue our jobs were at stake, but rather becasue I was embarassed of him.
Also our relationship was started under false pretenses. He wasn't broken up from his girlfriend yet when he started seeing me. The fucking coward that he was, he kept his options open to save his own ass if it didn't work out. That kind of angers me, but I also feel sorry for him that he had that self esteem issue.
And I guess I didn't help with my being embarassed of him.
It's weird how pregnancy makes you dream of things and people you thought you'd never think of again.
Also our relationship was started under false pretenses. He wasn't broken up from his girlfriend yet when he started seeing me. The fucking coward that he was, he kept his options open to save his own ass if it didn't work out. That kind of angers me, but I also feel sorry for him that he had that self esteem issue.
And I guess I didn't help with my being embarassed of him.
It's weird how pregnancy makes you dream of things and people you thought you'd never think of again.