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So I wake up all dazed and confused...
I wake up all confused, and I lean over to the side of the bed and puke up water. Just water. I don't know why I puked. It's hard to type, I'm trembling very very hard. I decide to watch the movie Dazed and Confused and I have a bag of popcorn as I watch...
Things were so much simpler back then. People didn't know what the effects of their words and actions upon people, and the recipient's feelings were generally unknown. The pain and confusion was nonexistant because no one was aware of it. Or couldn't be bothered by it. There was one scene I remember very vividly. Three girls and three guys sitting on a football field. One of the guys, a tough athlete packed full of jingoism starts chanting a phrase, "The powerful will survive!" He does this over and over again. I think to myself...what would those girls think of what he says. Could they understand the way he thinks, or are they stuck in a dissociated state that views his behavior as typical guy talk.
Could they understand the mindset that he is in, the mindset that, in the hands of people who are capable, could change the world...for good or worse?
I dunno...it always seems like women take the backseat on matters like this. Fascism would never come naturally to a girl, but to a man, fascism is a God, a value that represents the male psyche's desire to compensate for their lack of control, their lack of godliness.
Sometimes I think that women have the disadvantage...but then I think that the men are lost in their own schemes, their own nebulous anger. Even if women are drawn to a pattern that eventual revolves around commitment and relationships...at least it is peaceful, for the most part.
And where do I stand, I ask. It is 5 in the AM and I wonder what my place is in the world. I shy away from male values, and I find distaste in female values. But atleast in female values, I can find safety and acceptance. Whereas in male values, confrontation and aggression play a crucial factor in the dumbing down and retardation of love, peace, and gratification.
All you need is love...dun da dun da dun...all you need is love..love.....
....all you need is love.
I wake up all confused, and I lean over to the side of the bed and puke up water. Just water. I don't know why I puked. It's hard to type, I'm trembling very very hard. I decide to watch the movie Dazed and Confused and I have a bag of popcorn as I watch...
Things were so much simpler back then. People didn't know what the effects of their words and actions upon people, and the recipient's feelings were generally unknown. The pain and confusion was nonexistant because no one was aware of it. Or couldn't be bothered by it. There was one scene I remember very vividly. Three girls and three guys sitting on a football field. One of the guys, a tough athlete packed full of jingoism starts chanting a phrase, "The powerful will survive!" He does this over and over again. I think to myself...what would those girls think of what he says. Could they understand the way he thinks, or are they stuck in a dissociated state that views his behavior as typical guy talk.
Could they understand the mindset that he is in, the mindset that, in the hands of people who are capable, could change the world...for good or worse?
I dunno...it always seems like women take the backseat on matters like this. Fascism would never come naturally to a girl, but to a man, fascism is a God, a value that represents the male psyche's desire to compensate for their lack of control, their lack of godliness.
Sometimes I think that women have the disadvantage...but then I think that the men are lost in their own schemes, their own nebulous anger. Even if women are drawn to a pattern that eventual revolves around commitment and relationships...at least it is peaceful, for the most part.
And where do I stand, I ask. It is 5 in the AM and I wonder what my place is in the world. I shy away from male values, and I find distaste in female values. But atleast in female values, I can find safety and acceptance. Whereas in male values, confrontation and aggression play a crucial factor in the dumbing down and retardation of love, peace, and gratification.
All you need is love...dun da dun da dun...all you need is love..love.....
....all you need is love.