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so, the fair is winding up (it's hard to say winding down when it's going into the peak busy time for it)...
but there's just 4 more days to go.
and then the take-down.
and then it's done and gone again.
this time, i'm really looking forward to it being over, more than other years past.
it's got many factors leading me to this conclusion.
one major one is that i miss the free time, and using it to go rock-climbing and playing ultimate frisbee.
another reason is i miss having my own bedroom and tv and monitor to watch all my tv shows on with good sound.
another is that my dad's been using my car basically every day as his main transportation, since his car is done for. he's getting a new car right after the fair, so then i'll be back to having my own ride again.
another is that this is the time of year of many memories, many of them fond ones, and this year, i don't have too many forming. i haven't been at the fair as much, and i'm no longer a stranger to the city, so old friends don't stop by the booth just to see me or anything anymore... now it's just a job. i want this time to be over, so i can move on my memory ties to another period with less entangled emotional past reminders and memories.
another is i don't expect it to be as nice of a paycheck as it was last year and that is the main motivation for me to go through all this. with having my bro around, it takes away about 1/2 of my pay i'd made last year, and it really makes it not worth it for me to deal with all.
i just wanna be free.
save up and drive.
or cruise. or fly.
but just get out.
get back to the start, so to speak.
i just wanna lay out in the hot, summer sun and fall asleep.
wake up, take a nap inside, and then have some people come over and hang out for the night.
i don't even mind working outside on the Farm when the parents aren't around.
i just really like feeling independent. i hate feeling like i'm living at home under my parents' roof. i like feeling like i'm the head of things, like i can do whatever i want.
and i know that i can, always, but it's just somewhat of a psychological thing for me that is a lot different when they're gone.
i can play music loud, late. i can play drums and guitar and have friends over, late.
i can eat my own dinners, have my own breakfast schedule, plan things on my own time, not on theirs without the risk of upsetting them or throwing off their routines.
whatever.
this is all for now.
it'll all be over soon, and things will go back to normal, which is generally good right now.
hmph.
but there's just 4 more days to go.
and then the take-down.
and then it's done and gone again.
this time, i'm really looking forward to it being over, more than other years past.
it's got many factors leading me to this conclusion.
one major one is that i miss the free time, and using it to go rock-climbing and playing ultimate frisbee.
another reason is i miss having my own bedroom and tv and monitor to watch all my tv shows on with good sound.
another is that my dad's been using my car basically every day as his main transportation, since his car is done for. he's getting a new car right after the fair, so then i'll be back to having my own ride again.
another is that this is the time of year of many memories, many of them fond ones, and this year, i don't have too many forming. i haven't been at the fair as much, and i'm no longer a stranger to the city, so old friends don't stop by the booth just to see me or anything anymore... now it's just a job. i want this time to be over, so i can move on my memory ties to another period with less entangled emotional past reminders and memories.
another is i don't expect it to be as nice of a paycheck as it was last year and that is the main motivation for me to go through all this. with having my bro around, it takes away about 1/2 of my pay i'd made last year, and it really makes it not worth it for me to deal with all.
i just wanna be free.
save up and drive.
or cruise. or fly.
but just get out.
get back to the start, so to speak.
i just wanna lay out in the hot, summer sun and fall asleep.
wake up, take a nap inside, and then have some people come over and hang out for the night.
i don't even mind working outside on the Farm when the parents aren't around.
i just really like feeling independent. i hate feeling like i'm living at home under my parents' roof. i like feeling like i'm the head of things, like i can do whatever i want.
and i know that i can, always, but it's just somewhat of a psychological thing for me that is a lot different when they're gone.
i can play music loud, late. i can play drums and guitar and have friends over, late.
i can eat my own dinners, have my own breakfast schedule, plan things on my own time, not on theirs without the risk of upsetting them or throwing off their routines.
whatever.
this is all for now.
it'll all be over soon, and things will go back to normal, which is generally good right now.
hmph.