Take.My.Breath.Away
I guess it's about that time that I update this journal. Life has been pretty steady for the past couple mths. Go to school, practice, game, tumbling, and work. I actually had a chance to go to church the other week to, cause those bastards let me off early, woooohoooo. The school year is going better, I am doing an awesome job in english and I am comprehending more pre-calc than I would have ever imagined. I just took the ACT for the third time today, and I actually finished everything, so it wasn't that bad. I was extremly surprised, b/c I actually read every question and put down, well the one I thought best fit. However we don't get our tests back for about 3 weeks, but hopefully I well. *crosses fingers* I have been hanging out with all my friends lately, like everyone of them, hehe. I miss my lc girls soo much, and I miss my Kelly, I feel like I never see her anymore, but it's good for her and Cory to be spending more quality time w/each other, that's proabably why I don't try to invite myself over as much. It's christmas, and Brad finally called. My own brother, we used to be soo close, but then he grew up and it is as if he stopped caring. Although if I get accepted to OSU I'll see him much more cause he lives in that neck of the woods. I really miss him, and the kids. I was looking at pictures the other day, of all of us, and some of me when I was a babay with my WHOLE family and my gramma especially. I miss her sooo much. The only reason I turned out probabaly sane was because of her. She kept me strong, well her and Rose. I mean I still don't walk w/my barefeet in the kitchen, that's a nono ppl. LoL. Little things like that were wut I kept focusing my memories on, the good but at the moment, meaningless times. I realized the other day how fast someone can be taken away from us, just like that with the blink of an eye. You have to treasure every friendship, lover, or in general relationship that you share with a person, because who knows what is going to happen tomorrow. Ppl say I am to optimistic and it gets on their nerves, but why would I want to spend my life being depressed and unhappy just b/c something did not go my way. I'm stronger than that and much more, (acoording to Dalene) like a Silly Goose, dumb funny lol. I can make my friends laugh just by talking, and I think that is a good quality to have, b/c I love to cheer ppl up. Lately though it has been extremely hard for me to show emotion. After being hurt by soo many guys i just learned to kinda just brush it off, and move on.
Well my best friend's b-day is on Thursday, (she probably thought I forgot, but how could I) and I am still deciding wut to get her. I love my Rosie, she is like my northern star, always helping me find the right path. I have learned from her in soo many ways, and mostly I learned how to be faithful and true to yourself, because integrity and honestly are qualities a person should carry, at least to me. These are the things I beleive makes a worthwhile human being, not the most popular girl in the class or the bball star. I guess this is just how I think...but I love my beliefs.
I'm "talking" to this kid from Firelands, he's a real sweetheart. I still think I get nervous around him though, but I don't understand why. I'm such a loser lol. I am still just getting to know him though, but soo far I like what I know. I don't think he knows to much about me though, enough, but not the things, well...that are important I guess. But I am always afraid to talk to ppl about stuff that's emotional for me, b/c I don't want any pitty party, I just want ppl to know about me. Maybe someday I'll tell him the story, but right now, I guess I'm content on being my little mysterious old self. I'm supposed to go out tonite...but it's almost 1030...I think I am just gonna go watch a movie w/my care bear. Goodnite.
Well my best friend's b-day is on Thursday, (she probably thought I forgot, but how could I) and I am still deciding wut to get her. I love my Rosie, she is like my northern star, always helping me find the right path. I have learned from her in soo many ways, and mostly I learned how to be faithful and true to yourself, because integrity and honestly are qualities a person should carry, at least to me. These are the things I beleive makes a worthwhile human being, not the most popular girl in the class or the bball star. I guess this is just how I think...but I love my beliefs.
I'm "talking" to this kid from Firelands, he's a real sweetheart. I still think I get nervous around him though, but I don't understand why. I'm such a loser lol. I am still just getting to know him though, but soo far I like what I know. I don't think he knows to much about me though, enough, but not the things, well...that are important I guess. But I am always afraid to talk to ppl about stuff that's emotional for me, b/c I don't want any pitty party, I just want ppl to know about me. Maybe someday I'll tell him the story, but right now, I guess I'm content on being my little mysterious old self. I'm supposed to go out tonite...but it's almost 1030...I think I am just gonna go watch a movie w/my care bear. Goodnite.