Time to growww
Well I didn't go up on my act, and I seem to be doing worse in Pre-Calc. I get really down on myself when it comes to academics. I think that I have to get them, b/c that is the only thing that inpresses anyone in my family. Well at least I thought so, until my dad proved me wrong with a dozen roses at my play the other nite. This was the biggest surprise of my life, b/c he has never even stayed for a full play I have ever been in, until now, well I still didn't see him at the end. IDK things are real odd lately, Kenny is in jail. Kinda expected that, but I feel guilty taking pleasure in the fact, like I think, "he got what he deserved." But that's wrong, thinking like that is not the person I am or who I want to be. I'm not forgiving him, although he did apologize. It was a sincere apology, said he had a life awakening, I think we know what caused that. But forgive n forget...relive n regret, u know? An apology doesn't heal the pain you cause ppl, sorry. So when you do apologize, try to think b4hand of the action your apologizing for.
But on a good note, I've started to like this guy alot. He's pretty down to earth, fun, easy to talk too, and knows how to make me smile, a real smile, and that is a hard thing to do. I wanna be more open with him, cause theres alot of things he doesnt know about me, not bad, but things I wanna tell him I guess. I hope he feels the way I do, it has been awhile since I've been this nervous about a guy. I mean this one nite I acted like a complete asshole cause i was so nervous....haha I even drove up on a curb...yeah I'm slow. Well will see...well tomorrow is the last day of school thank God, and then turkey day is coming up. What a busy day, nursing home at 12, then grandmas, and then moms to help cook n eat n drink. FUNFUNFUN...oh yeah n pokerrr...pimppp..lol
It's been about a year...since my grandma...it's hard around this time...I miss her more then words...she's here...but not. I mean you know, body but not mind. She basically raised me...when I lived with my mom, her, n then my dad. I just...miss it...well I'm gonan finish watching dirty dancing...adios
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But on a good note, I've started to like this guy alot. He's pretty down to earth, fun, easy to talk too, and knows how to make me smile, a real smile, and that is a hard thing to do. I wanna be more open with him, cause theres alot of things he doesnt know about me, not bad, but things I wanna tell him I guess. I hope he feels the way I do, it has been awhile since I've been this nervous about a guy. I mean this one nite I acted like a complete asshole cause i was so nervous....haha I even drove up on a curb...yeah I'm slow. Well will see...well tomorrow is the last day of school thank God, and then turkey day is coming up. What a busy day, nursing home at 12, then grandmas, and then moms to help cook n eat n drink. FUNFUNFUN...oh yeah n pokerrr...pimppp..lol
It's been about a year...since my grandma...it's hard around this time...I miss her more then words...she's here...but not. I mean you know, body but not mind. She basically raised me...when I lived with my mom, her, n then my dad. I just...miss it...well I'm gonan finish watching dirty dancing...adios
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