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Today was a little bit difficult, but I managed. I was just missing some people in my life that I wish were still here. I do not know if I am better off without them or not, but either way it is the way it is and I have to try and come to terms with it.
The con is in a couple of weeks and I just don't know if I am going to be able to bring myself to go. I don't know if I can take seeing him with her. I don't' know if I can handle seeing just him in general. I don't know if I can. After 7 or 8 years of him always being there, I don't know how I will be able to be in the same room with him and not speak to him. I still have desires to share everything with him just out of sheer habit of telling him everything for the past 7 or however many years. And I just never thought that he wouldn't be there and it's hard to handle.
The singing at the church went well. It was my last weekend singing there for a long time probably... maybe even ever. It was kind of sad. On one hand I am happy to be done with it, on the other hand I am going to miss it and am sad to see it go. I guess mixed feelings are always fun. lol
The con is in a couple of weeks and I just don't know if I am going to be able to bring myself to go. I don't know if I can take seeing him with her. I don't' know if I can handle seeing just him in general. I don't know if I can. After 7 or 8 years of him always being there, I don't know how I will be able to be in the same room with him and not speak to him. I still have desires to share everything with him just out of sheer habit of telling him everything for the past 7 or however many years. And I just never thought that he wouldn't be there and it's hard to handle.
The singing at the church went well. It was my last weekend singing there for a long time probably... maybe even ever. It was kind of sad. On one hand I am happy to be done with it, on the other hand I am going to miss it and am sad to see it go. I guess mixed feelings are always fun. lol