end of the tragic romance novel manz~
currently sms-ing Gummy.. think my eyes have been opened. my feelings for her r gradually ebbing away as we speak.. haha why? well we were talkin abt the topic of r/s.. and well her opinions on it make me realise how straight she really is. she's like.. incomparably straight. unbelievably straight. becuz she believes that r/s shld be for the objective of marriage.. and not for anyth else.. including companionship.. yeah.. well i was juz kinda erm shocked lol. and well when we were talkin abt this she kept using "he" to describe her future partner so it's kinda obvious where she leans right.. someone that conservative has absolutely NO CHANCE of being open to non-str8 r/s. yeah. "-infinity" chance. so.. heh. i feel like laughing now.. feel like.. it's all been one big joke.. one weird time-wasting joke.. self-delusion.. ohwell. and before that we were talkin about death.. and i wasnt v approving of her opinions on it.. i think she's too realistic n practical a person for me.. yeah.. somehow talkin to her now i realise why last yr we nv talked at all. we're juz too different. if we nv made e effort our paths would naturally be skew lines i.e never crossing. so yeah.. actually i dont even think we can become good frens now becuz we're JUST TOO DIFFERENT! it's unbelievable. i feel kinda tired now. sigh... in fact i think i dun mind confessing now becuz itll juz be a source of entertainment for both of us... smth to laugh over.. smth not to be taken seriously.. so much for the pain n longing i went through.. it's juz been.. smth to be laughed off in the face of crumbling self-delusion.. oo haha..
well we had graduation 2day.. i enjoyed most of it i guess.. didnt really photowhore much this time.. guess the most exciting part had to be the autographin session.. hehe.. i like lookin at my booklets and seeing them all full of colours n different handwriting.. makes me wanna grab it and read immediately. =) stupid jW nv help me write! and it's kinda regrettable that karen, hanying, alwin and liyong din come today (means i got less stuff written in my booklet! ahhhh! =( ) heh.. well frm the stuff in my booklet it seems that im a siao person. basically siao. yeah. LOL. that jeremy ah! write so lil! haha. i really liked what josh wrote =D v meaningful.. and lookin at the prelim results sheet.. at first i was lik, huh, these aren't my grades what! cuz i saw wrongly.. haha i saw the "Level" instead of the "Grade".. den AAA marh.. so i was lik *eyes open big big* but I WANT TO SEE THAT FOR 'A's!!!! I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANTTTTT!!!! seriously. i.want.to.see.A.A.A.in.both.the.grade.and.level.column. i want to see As everywhere!! ahhhh!!! *delirious* XDDD
haha i felt lik leaning on Gummy today but she moved away when i tilted in her direction so.. guess that's a sign. J said she felt lik hugging me today but she was afraid to approach me. wow that's v honest of her to confess! so aniwae i told her she can haf a hug 2ml or smth.. and i'll initiate it.. ahhaa.. eh the thought's abit scary but i know how it feels lik to yearn for smth and not be able to have it.. lik how i used to yearn for Gummy.. oh well. but i think i'm more accessible than Gummy. haha. so good lo.
wah i was so tired that i kept usin the chewin time durin dinner to nap.. hehe.. hmm i pretty much followed my timetable 2day except that im supposed to be mugging now -.- there's e maths paper 2ml and I'M NOT PREPARED. omg. die. dun feel lik going alr =( bleh. sigh.. well, durin dinner we had sotong stuffed with minced meat and i took a vid of me eatin the sotong.. it can look kinda obscene dpding on how you take it.. haha.. but i tink it's funny! =) cuz my front teeth haf a gap so i can't lik bite cleanly.. have to tug and gnash and pull.. yeah.. and use the spoon to scrape a hole.. haha toots la. k la think i shld go mug now or smth.. so tired so tired!! =((((
p.s. it's funny how im not feelin particularly sad about graduating.. maybe its cuz im more concerned abt 'A's? or maybe cuz we onli spent 2 yrs in NJ.. so not that much feelin of belonging.. ohwell.. sometimes i still miss my previous jc (NYJC).. yeah.. *shrugs* funny how chapters of your life finish so fast.
well we had graduation 2day.. i enjoyed most of it i guess.. didnt really photowhore much this time.. guess the most exciting part had to be the autographin session.. hehe.. i like lookin at my booklets and seeing them all full of colours n different handwriting.. makes me wanna grab it and read immediately. =) stupid jW nv help me write! and it's kinda regrettable that karen, hanying, alwin and liyong din come today (means i got less stuff written in my booklet! ahhhh! =( ) heh.. well frm the stuff in my booklet it seems that im a siao person. basically siao. yeah. LOL. that jeremy ah! write so lil! haha. i really liked what josh wrote =D v meaningful.. and lookin at the prelim results sheet.. at first i was lik, huh, these aren't my grades what! cuz i saw wrongly.. haha i saw the "Level" instead of the "Grade".. den AAA marh.. so i was lik *eyes open big big* but I WANT TO SEE THAT FOR 'A's!!!! I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANTTTTT!!!! seriously. i.want.to.see.A.A.A.in.both.the.grade.and.level.column. i want to see As everywhere!! ahhhh!!! *delirious* XDDD
haha i felt lik leaning on Gummy today but she moved away when i tilted in her direction so.. guess that's a sign. J said she felt lik hugging me today but she was afraid to approach me. wow that's v honest of her to confess! so aniwae i told her she can haf a hug 2ml or smth.. and i'll initiate it.. ahhaa.. eh the thought's abit scary but i know how it feels lik to yearn for smth and not be able to have it.. lik how i used to yearn for Gummy.. oh well. but i think i'm more accessible than Gummy. haha. so good lo.
wah i was so tired that i kept usin the chewin time durin dinner to nap.. hehe.. hmm i pretty much followed my timetable 2day except that im supposed to be mugging now -.- there's e maths paper 2ml and I'M NOT PREPARED. omg. die. dun feel lik going alr =( bleh. sigh.. well, durin dinner we had sotong stuffed with minced meat and i took a vid of me eatin the sotong.. it can look kinda obscene dpding on how you take it.. haha.. but i tink it's funny! =) cuz my front teeth haf a gap so i can't lik bite cleanly.. have to tug and gnash and pull.. yeah.. and use the spoon to scrape a hole.. haha toots la. k la think i shld go mug now or smth.. so tired so tired!! =((((
p.s. it's funny how im not feelin particularly sad about graduating.. maybe its cuz im more concerned abt 'A's? or maybe cuz we onli spent 2 yrs in NJ.. so not that much feelin of belonging.. ohwell.. sometimes i still miss my previous jc (NYJC).. yeah.. *shrugs* funny how chapters of your life finish so fast.