ARGHHHHHHHHHH X(
well.. it's been a horrible night.. and i dno, all in all a horrible day? haiiix
spent my day out 2day.. went with joyce to go see alvin ong's art exhibition at the esplanade.. along with his works there were all the other winning paintings for the ocbc comp.. some were very thought-provoking indeed. i felt quite disturbed. but yeah u must marvel at their skill and the effort put into the works of art.. we had some interesting convos about the meanings of certain paintings.. alvin ong is a cheem guy. his paintings are really abstract. but there's a lot of subtle detail and i suppose there's quite a lot of meaning hidden in his work.. hmm..
man armpit hair grows back realli quickly la. wtf.
sigh.. joyce and i have a lot in common, unexpectedly. it's nice cuz we can understand each other, discuss stuff.. yeah. hmm. we had some nice convos during lunch 2day.. haha.. very, how to say.. soul-baring? aniwae after she left i went to guardian and splurged lik crazy.. $154 laa.. gawd. the sales promoter was damn good. aniwae, i bought the highschoolmusical OST 2day! =D yeah.. but somehow all of that seems lik.. not v impt right now.. sigh.
kinda dressed up to go out 2day.. so becuz i din haf strappy white sandals (which i've been wanting to get for the longest timeee) i wore my wedges instead.. i tot i'd be fine wearin them but i think it's cuz i havnt worn such stuff for ages.. so mannn my feet hurt really bad. lik excrutiatingly bad. -.- ouchhh. my feet are still sore now. =((( gahhh. for those lacking the fashion know-how, wedges are like heels. yeah. they aint flat. walking in heels is tiring. and painful if ure not used to it.. and dammit im not used to it!!! walkin down the hill to the 77 bus stop is suicide lah. ALWAYS get blisters. no matter what i wear. i think the only thing that doesnt gimme blisters is wearin sports shoes lol. ok that's sad.
so went to causeway pt after that.. to look at airplants. after a HELL long period of deliberation, i finally gave in and paid $10 for a tillandsia Showtime baby =) i've always wanted a Showtime of my own.. and well i hope this baby wont die on me -.- it's lik really small sigh. and i need to start taking better care of my airplants.. =(
bought stuff at cold storage for the team bbq on sat.. bloody potatoes.. so lugging a lot of heavy bags, i trudged in my punishing footwear towards e mrt.. every few steps i'd pull up my jeans which were dropping down.. dammit.. it was absolute TORTURE arghhh! i was actually contemplating askin LG to give me a lift home.. haha.. but ohwell i made it back home in one piece.. but in a lot of pain lah.. ouchouch.. =((( yeah so painful feet kinda spoil ure day... sigh
haiix i guess i cant go for team bbq 2ml =( thx to my mom. came inside n spouted a whole load of crap and ok, i guess resting period's officially over. 1 and a half days onli? pathetic. even my bro told me to rest a few days. bleh. i feel so bad =( cant go for bbq. i know wendy's gonna be damn disappointed.. sigh.. =(((( so much for the last fun event b4 hardcore muggin for 'A's start.. i was lik totally pouring out everythin to changx and even she thinks my mom is abit too zealous abt me mugging. imagine the 1st thing a mother sayin to her daughter bein "so did you study 2day?" lik wtf. i was so upset that i was crying away.. and feeling like i wanted to explode, shout until i can't shout anymore, just wanted to let it out somehow. wanted to be violent, wanted to be rebellious, wanted to return the pain n hurt i was feelin.. haiiix.. this sucks lah. lik totally. i guess im gonna get into more trouble later when my mom looks through my bank book and discovers i spent so much.. dammit
well it was durin that sad period that i concluded ok LG is not the one for me. his responses were totally wrong la.. wtf.. if we got together i think we'd be fighting most of the time. so yeah. den was discussin with changx abt it and well.. i juz feel kinda sad n tired.. but lik she said, i shldnt enter a r/s for e sake of entering it and i shldnt settle for a guy thats "not so bad".. yeah.. i shldnt short-change myself. but sometimes i juz feel so lonely... sometimes i contemplate the possibilities.. bleh.. but aniwae, above all, LG is not the one for me. so there. end of story. no more wishful tinkin, no more wastin time. that's it.
i promised changx that i wldnt hurt myself or risk my future juz to get back at my mom. so i wont be stupid and purposely fail my 'A's just for e sake of rebellion (even tho juz now i felt lik bloody doin that). yeah.. but i feel kinda shortchanged, lik it feels weird to kick off hardcore mugging feeling this way.. so sour.. and unfulfilled. sucks la. my mom ruined it!!! arghhhhh!!!!! $*@($*$()*@#()@()$
spent my day out 2day.. went with joyce to go see alvin ong's art exhibition at the esplanade.. along with his works there were all the other winning paintings for the ocbc comp.. some were very thought-provoking indeed. i felt quite disturbed. but yeah u must marvel at their skill and the effort put into the works of art.. we had some interesting convos about the meanings of certain paintings.. alvin ong is a cheem guy. his paintings are really abstract. but there's a lot of subtle detail and i suppose there's quite a lot of meaning hidden in his work.. hmm..
man armpit hair grows back realli quickly la. wtf.
sigh.. joyce and i have a lot in common, unexpectedly. it's nice cuz we can understand each other, discuss stuff.. yeah. hmm. we had some nice convos during lunch 2day.. haha.. very, how to say.. soul-baring? aniwae after she left i went to guardian and splurged lik crazy.. $154 laa.. gawd. the sales promoter was damn good. aniwae, i bought the highschoolmusical OST 2day! =D yeah.. but somehow all of that seems lik.. not v impt right now.. sigh.
kinda dressed up to go out 2day.. so becuz i din haf strappy white sandals (which i've been wanting to get for the longest timeee) i wore my wedges instead.. i tot i'd be fine wearin them but i think it's cuz i havnt worn such stuff for ages.. so mannn my feet hurt really bad. lik excrutiatingly bad. -.- ouchhh. my feet are still sore now. =((( gahhh. for those lacking the fashion know-how, wedges are like heels. yeah. they aint flat. walking in heels is tiring. and painful if ure not used to it.. and dammit im not used to it!!! walkin down the hill to the 77 bus stop is suicide lah. ALWAYS get blisters. no matter what i wear. i think the only thing that doesnt gimme blisters is wearin sports shoes lol. ok that's sad.
so went to causeway pt after that.. to look at airplants. after a HELL long period of deliberation, i finally gave in and paid $10 for a tillandsia Showtime baby =) i've always wanted a Showtime of my own.. and well i hope this baby wont die on me -.- it's lik really small sigh. and i need to start taking better care of my airplants.. =(
bought stuff at cold storage for the team bbq on sat.. bloody potatoes.. so lugging a lot of heavy bags, i trudged in my punishing footwear towards e mrt.. every few steps i'd pull up my jeans which were dropping down.. dammit.. it was absolute TORTURE arghhh! i was actually contemplating askin LG to give me a lift home.. haha.. but ohwell i made it back home in one piece.. but in a lot of pain lah.. ouchouch.. =((( yeah so painful feet kinda spoil ure day... sigh
haiix i guess i cant go for team bbq 2ml =( thx to my mom. came inside n spouted a whole load of crap and ok, i guess resting period's officially over. 1 and a half days onli? pathetic. even my bro told me to rest a few days. bleh. i feel so bad =( cant go for bbq. i know wendy's gonna be damn disappointed.. sigh.. =(((( so much for the last fun event b4 hardcore muggin for 'A's start.. i was lik totally pouring out everythin to changx and even she thinks my mom is abit too zealous abt me mugging. imagine the 1st thing a mother sayin to her daughter bein "so did you study 2day?" lik wtf. i was so upset that i was crying away.. and feeling like i wanted to explode, shout until i can't shout anymore, just wanted to let it out somehow. wanted to be violent, wanted to be rebellious, wanted to return the pain n hurt i was feelin.. haiiix.. this sucks lah. lik totally. i guess im gonna get into more trouble later when my mom looks through my bank book and discovers i spent so much.. dammit
well it was durin that sad period that i concluded ok LG is not the one for me. his responses were totally wrong la.. wtf.. if we got together i think we'd be fighting most of the time. so yeah. den was discussin with changx abt it and well.. i juz feel kinda sad n tired.. but lik she said, i shldnt enter a r/s for e sake of entering it and i shldnt settle for a guy thats "not so bad".. yeah.. i shldnt short-change myself. but sometimes i juz feel so lonely... sometimes i contemplate the possibilities.. bleh.. but aniwae, above all, LG is not the one for me. so there. end of story. no more wishful tinkin, no more wastin time. that's it.
i promised changx that i wldnt hurt myself or risk my future juz to get back at my mom. so i wont be stupid and purposely fail my 'A's just for e sake of rebellion (even tho juz now i felt lik bloody doin that). yeah.. but i feel kinda shortchanged, lik it feels weird to kick off hardcore mugging feeling this way.. so sour.. and unfulfilled. sucks la. my mom ruined it!!! arghhhhh!!!!! $*@($*$()*@#()@()$