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Things are doing better now. I did get all my hair chopped off, but I actually like it. May sound kinda stupid, but it's like a new image, and a new me. I'm going to try to be more optimistic.
Isn't it strange how you can give so many others advice on damn near anything and expect them to at least consider what you are telling them, but yet find it harder to follow your own advice in other circumstances? It's like you tell people not to give up hope on anything, but yet you aren't really doing much for yourself either. It's like a circle.. everyone is so damn hard headed and think they know what's right for everyone else or themselves.. but keep dancing around the subject till it drives them crazy. J- you should listen to the advice I gave you.. I didn't give up, though it may have seemed that I gave up on sharing all my opinions with the entire world, I still didn't give up. That doesn't make me a seclusive person, that doesn't mean that I 'don't like you anymore as a friend' so you've heard. It's doesn't mean that all the words I've said to you are just plain bullshit to be tossed aside either. It doesn't mean that I don't trust others with what I'm feeling, but in my case I feel like my problems are minute compared to what you seem to put onto yourself. I don't want to be the cause of more stress and pain for you.. it's really not fair. And I don't want to put more stress on myself either.
I just wish everyone could just let the shit go... and Just fucking LIVE. Life isn't easy.. it's a bitch, then you die. Especially for those of us who are slaves of the Albanians. Everyone needs to quit worrying about what people think about them, quit worrying about making others happy, and quit just all the nonsense. Only YOU can make yourself happy they can't live your life for you and if all you do is dig yourself a tiny fucking hole to live in the rest of your life, you're gonna die there too.. cold and alone. And you shouldn't expect someone else to have to save you from that. If you aren't willing to help yourself, then how can you expect to help others with their problems.. it's that same damn circle... pity others, they pity you,... what joy it is to live in the cafe of bitchin
Love u love me
K
Isn't it strange how you can give so many others advice on damn near anything and expect them to at least consider what you are telling them, but yet find it harder to follow your own advice in other circumstances? It's like you tell people not to give up hope on anything, but yet you aren't really doing much for yourself either. It's like a circle.. everyone is so damn hard headed and think they know what's right for everyone else or themselves.. but keep dancing around the subject till it drives them crazy. J- you should listen to the advice I gave you.. I didn't give up, though it may have seemed that I gave up on sharing all my opinions with the entire world, I still didn't give up. That doesn't make me a seclusive person, that doesn't mean that I 'don't like you anymore as a friend' so you've heard. It's doesn't mean that all the words I've said to you are just plain bullshit to be tossed aside either. It doesn't mean that I don't trust others with what I'm feeling, but in my case I feel like my problems are minute compared to what you seem to put onto yourself. I don't want to be the cause of more stress and pain for you.. it's really not fair. And I don't want to put more stress on myself either.
I just wish everyone could just let the shit go... and Just fucking LIVE. Life isn't easy.. it's a bitch, then you die. Especially for those of us who are slaves of the Albanians. Everyone needs to quit worrying about what people think about them, quit worrying about making others happy, and quit just all the nonsense. Only YOU can make yourself happy they can't live your life for you and if all you do is dig yourself a tiny fucking hole to live in the rest of your life, you're gonna die there too.. cold and alone. And you shouldn't expect someone else to have to save you from that. If you aren't willing to help yourself, then how can you expect to help others with their problems.. it's that same damn circle... pity others, they pity you,... what joy it is to live in the cafe of bitchin
Love u love me
K