leaving again

Dec 10, 2006 17:40

im at the airport now with a little time to kill so i decided to drop a few words before i leave... i guess this time round... it feels alot more different on the past occassions i will be so looking forward to go back again... not this time round... its kind of a mixed feelings... so much so i wanna head back... i feel that its equally strong that i dun wanna go back... its kind of a push pull factor... leaving singapore away from all these shit does feel good... and to think that i will be on my backpacking trip sounds good... on the other hand... the idea of leaving evertyhing behind makes me feel like im gonna jeopardize everything... and also the idea of going back to face 2 dead ppl is kinda killing me... which of course the latter reason is the push factor tat sort of repels me from going back... but sigh... not like ive much of a choice... im already at the airport... hopefully the solo backpacking trip will help cheer me up... certainly allows room for me to think and rethink... since i will be spending quite a fair bit of time on the train... whizzing scenery... freeze ass experience... perfect time for reflection... heh... hopefully i make it back in one piece... coz its a cold cruel world out there... travellers like me are subjected to all kinds of iminent dangers.. but seriously who really does care if im dead or not... give it a year or so... and i iwll be long forgotten... but heck... in the event that i din make it back alive... thank you all whoever you are who had stepped into my life... make an impact... left halfway... or wateva... thanks...

anyway... for those who wanna contact me... can still email me... drop me a comment... coz ive no idea if china uses msn... no one ever uses msn there... so yup i will check mail and hopefully blog often...

so long guys... have a merry xmas and a very happy new year ahead...
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