mundane stuff
staring at my computer screen... realised haven been really blogging for awhile... always lyrics and more lyrics... but i did made an attempt to blog some stuff down... but everytime i complete scribbling some rubbish... something just tells me to fuck off and not post it... is this a constant self awareness that wat i blog down will affect other ppl? why do i really bother so much? this is my blog... i dunno why but everytime i got this feeling i will just close the browser all together... maybe its just some internal conflicts... some other shit happening going on within me...
anyway so here i am once again blogging... i wun say entirely happy... but good enough to get by... november was a total hell of a crazy month... ya noe... the exams... studying last min... juggling 6 papers... lack of sleep... grouchy mood... all these combined re-defined a brand new level of unhealthy living... meals at weird hours.. sleep 11 hours total in 5 days... sleepless night before the exam... beering at the wrong hour... forcing myself to go on even though my body tells me i cant hold it anymore... but i guess all the efforts did redeemed a little bit of wat i have slacked away throught the sem... i used to think that i found my motivation to go on.. but all is taken aback... and this so called motivation is nothing but mortal... and i would sure say that this mortal motivation is as unreliable as hell... looking back at everything... how this november went by... i guess God did see me thru... without Him by my side... i probably wun made it out... though my lifestyle unhealthy... but at least i made it... and to hell wat others are doing and thinking... i manage to pull myself out of this shit and concentrate on my exams... one person in particular (some aero dude) asked me how i even manage to do it... i replied i sure hell din noe how i made it this far... but i just did...
now that exams are over almost a week... been spending sometime resting this tired wretched soul of mine... slept like a log the day after the exams... well on the actual day of my last paper which was last friday i had a party... and went back slept only a little..
sat was my sec school peeps biggest event in the year... our ASF which stands for annual steamboat festival... oh well... its a yearly thing whereby we will all gather at someone's place to have steamboat... this year so happneed that my house was the venue... so was kinda busy packing around and preparing... but well we had fun... none the less... guess our peeps are really drifiting apart... ppl busy with work, school, everything else... its one of those rare occasion where by almost everyone from the gang made it there... heh heck... im already tired of trying holding everyone together...
sunday was as usual church... afternoon went to meet a fren for more steamboat... and i must say it was a really great afternoon... with a sense of familiarity and all... but just need to be clear abt wats going on... spend a little time thinking abt it... realise that alot of things are wrong... hmmm we'll see how things goes by buddy...
monday was out in the JB... heh my team (aero dudes that stuck thru the exams in that stupid tutorial room) went over to JB for some DVD shopping and of coz not forgetting seafood dinner... over there.. we just realised that how small is singapore... my God... our team of 6 went over... holiday plaza.. first thing met 2 more aero dudes... manage to convince them for seafood dinner too... and then was hall peeps... damn... even in malaysia we meet them... oh well... but seafood dinner was shiok... 6 bucks sing... stingray and stuff... was full to the max... haven realy had such a power dinner in a while... after that... went back... jam was horrendous... well typical checkpoint scene... singaporeans all making their way back... and we realised that the bus is gonna take a hell long time... so we decided to do soemthing crazy... well not exactly that crazy la... just walking across the causeway... but the walk was long and quite enjoyable... heh... was dead beat after hitting home... watch tv and koon...
today spend my morning over at the china embassy to get my visa done... the queue was maddness... but coincidentally met Dora there... she was settling her stuff... heh oh well at least i had some company... time seemed to pass by fast...
okie mundane stuff over... wondering who still comes here... heh... for those who still read... this has been wats happening... other than that nothing much... oh will be flying off to home on the 10th... back only on the 29th...
time for some solo backpacking trip, photowhoring, train hopping... hopefully this time spending alone will make me feel a little better...
but this time round... it feels different... leaving singapore troubles behind... but back to face more emotional luggages... near xmas... but heck... i dun give shit... enjoy first.. think later...
came across a few interesting lines from different ppl...
heres one i like 'jie mei/buddies/good frens wun listen to wat you say... they only listen to wat you dun say' this line to a certain extent holds true... heh...
heres one more 'determination and stubborness is distinguished by a thin fine line... and ppl always flirt around it...' this on itself is an irony... so when is someone stubborn? so when is someone determined?
now that exams are over... my mind is filled with so much stuff again.. God.. help me... sigh... time to battle the storm... again...
anyway so here i am once again blogging... i wun say entirely happy... but good enough to get by... november was a total hell of a crazy month... ya noe... the exams... studying last min... juggling 6 papers... lack of sleep... grouchy mood... all these combined re-defined a brand new level of unhealthy living... meals at weird hours.. sleep 11 hours total in 5 days... sleepless night before the exam... beering at the wrong hour... forcing myself to go on even though my body tells me i cant hold it anymore... but i guess all the efforts did redeemed a little bit of wat i have slacked away throught the sem... i used to think that i found my motivation to go on.. but all is taken aback... and this so called motivation is nothing but mortal... and i would sure say that this mortal motivation is as unreliable as hell... looking back at everything... how this november went by... i guess God did see me thru... without Him by my side... i probably wun made it out... though my lifestyle unhealthy... but at least i made it... and to hell wat others are doing and thinking... i manage to pull myself out of this shit and concentrate on my exams... one person in particular (some aero dude) asked me how i even manage to do it... i replied i sure hell din noe how i made it this far... but i just did...
now that exams are over almost a week... been spending sometime resting this tired wretched soul of mine... slept like a log the day after the exams... well on the actual day of my last paper which was last friday i had a party... and went back slept only a little..
sat was my sec school peeps biggest event in the year... our ASF which stands for annual steamboat festival... oh well... its a yearly thing whereby we will all gather at someone's place to have steamboat... this year so happneed that my house was the venue... so was kinda busy packing around and preparing... but well we had fun... none the less... guess our peeps are really drifiting apart... ppl busy with work, school, everything else... its one of those rare occasion where by almost everyone from the gang made it there... heh heck... im already tired of trying holding everyone together...
sunday was as usual church... afternoon went to meet a fren for more steamboat... and i must say it was a really great afternoon... with a sense of familiarity and all... but just need to be clear abt wats going on... spend a little time thinking abt it... realise that alot of things are wrong... hmmm we'll see how things goes by buddy...
monday was out in the JB... heh my team (aero dudes that stuck thru the exams in that stupid tutorial room) went over to JB for some DVD shopping and of coz not forgetting seafood dinner... over there.. we just realised that how small is singapore... my God... our team of 6 went over... holiday plaza.. first thing met 2 more aero dudes... manage to convince them for seafood dinner too... and then was hall peeps... damn... even in malaysia we meet them... oh well... but seafood dinner was shiok... 6 bucks sing... stingray and stuff... was full to the max... haven realy had such a power dinner in a while... after that... went back... jam was horrendous... well typical checkpoint scene... singaporeans all making their way back... and we realised that the bus is gonna take a hell long time... so we decided to do soemthing crazy... well not exactly that crazy la... just walking across the causeway... but the walk was long and quite enjoyable... heh... was dead beat after hitting home... watch tv and koon...
today spend my morning over at the china embassy to get my visa done... the queue was maddness... but coincidentally met Dora there... she was settling her stuff... heh oh well at least i had some company... time seemed to pass by fast...
okie mundane stuff over... wondering who still comes here... heh... for those who still read... this has been wats happening... other than that nothing much... oh will be flying off to home on the 10th... back only on the 29th...
time for some solo backpacking trip, photowhoring, train hopping... hopefully this time spending alone will make me feel a little better...
but this time round... it feels different... leaving singapore troubles behind... but back to face more emotional luggages... near xmas... but heck... i dun give shit... enjoy first.. think later...
came across a few interesting lines from different ppl...
heres one i like 'jie mei/buddies/good frens wun listen to wat you say... they only listen to wat you dun say' this line to a certain extent holds true... heh...
heres one more 'determination and stubborness is distinguished by a thin fine line... and ppl always flirt around it...' this on itself is an irony... so when is someone stubborn? so when is someone determined?
now that exams are over... my mind is filled with so much stuff again.. God.. help me... sigh... time to battle the storm... again...