† 12: video | 17 january | 11 am

[monadmayer]

I suppose it's time to bite the bullet and just put this out here - considering that I'm tired of sitting about while people go on missions -

[ Straight to the point as always, Re-L is up early and seemingly on a mission today. No long-winded thoughts about philosophy here, or existential questions about this or that - the meaning of life - that

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[Audio]

[dead_black_eyes]

Would you be open to talking a bit about your general personality traits?

[Audio]

[monadmayer]

General personality traits? Hm. Fine, ask your questions.

[Audio]

[dead_black_eyes]

Questions?

[Patiently]

What are you like?

[Audio]

[monadmayer]

You're going to have to be more specific than that. At least, with what you'd like to know.

[Audio]

[dead_black_eyes]

[A quiet sigh.]

Are you quiet, or talkative? A giver, or a taker? Introverted or extroverted? Just... talk about yourself.

[Audio]

[monadmayer]

[ Ah, and here we meet the crux of the situation. She so used to her name proceeding her that, well. Talking about herself is new territory, in an odd way. ]

Quiet, taker, ... neither introverted nor extroverted. I talk when it suits me and I feel it's necessary, and I don't feel compelled to do so around strangers all that often. I... prefer intellectual pursuits more than parties, but I suppose I am a typical female in my.. wanting to shop and all of those other things.

... Is there anything else you're curious about?

[Audio]

[dead_black_eyes]

I think that suffices.

It's as I thought when I saw your face. I don't think we'd be able to resonate.

[Audio]

[monadmayer]

The fact you're willing to base that in flimsy terms without even a trial at it is a little ridiculous.
[ She kind of fails to see how her face factors in to this - but she's trying her best to push ego aside. ]

[Audio]

[dead_black_eyes]

The terms aren't flimsy. You actually can tell a lot about someone, by seeing their face.

You happen to bear an unfortunate resemblance to someone I used to know. Therefore, through no fault of your own, I am suspicious of you. If we attempted to resonate, I fear that that suspicion would destroy the attempt, and if my previous attempts to resonate with meisters are anything to go on, you could get hurt.

So... in a roundabout way, I think that perhaps I'm trying to protect you. Even if I don't like your face.

[Audio]

[monadmayer]

I don't need to be protected [ Anymore. ]

Besides, I prefer not to try resonation until I know someone a little better. Letting someone that close to my psyche isn't exactly how I prefer to 'meet' someone. It's already invasive enough for an acquaintance.

[Audio]

[dead_black_eyes]

I feel the same, which is why I asked you about yourself to confirm that we would not work.

[L has figured out that the more like him someone is, the more likely it is that resonance will fail disastrously and painfully.]

[Audio]

[monadmayer]

So you'll rely on my own self-assessment instead of your own assessment? Hmph.

[Audio]

[dead_black_eyes]

You've known yourself for your entire life. I only just met you, and am attempting to override a personal bias concerning someone in my life you happen to resemble. I think you'd know more about it than any ill-advised conclusion I might jump to.

That, and honestly your self-assessment has been largely consistent with what I've come to believe in the short time we've been talking.

[Audio]

[monadmayer]

It's funny that you say I've known myself when I haven't. [ But still, even that is sort of deadpanned, stated in more 'matter of fact' than anything else. ]

But if you're so assured in your assessment, go forward with it.

[Audio]

[dead_black_eyes]

Forward? I'm looking for a partner too, and I don't really think it would be prudent to pursue this further.

[Audio]

[monadmayer]

Generally forward, not forward with the expectance that I would be along for it.