Finding a Voice
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME
1) movies that involve any kind of suspense
2) failure
3) rollercoasters
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
1) The lack of decent people
2) liberals
3) calculus
THREE THINGS I'D LIKE TO LEARN
1) ballet
2) how this whole stock market/economy thing works
3) how to perform well under pressure
THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
1) a red bushman shirt
2) obnoxiously dark blue jeans that stain my brand new work shoes
3) 15 pieces of flare
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
1) jerkins shimmery lotion
2) unorganized lose leaf notes
3) hello kittie cup full of pens
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1) sing on broadway
2) kiss Alex
3) have an E True Hollywood story on me
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
1) cynical
2) romantic
3) quixotic
THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
1) egotistical
2) picky
3) general idea the most people aren't important
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1) Russian Jew
2) Cherokee Indian
3) Random White girl
THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1) legs
2) cheek bones
3) hips
THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1) boobs
2) eyes
3) shoulder blades
THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME
1) I have big feet
2) I used to want like 10 kids
3) I always worry that my parents will start reading my LJ
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1) I know right
2) (she/he/they) (were/is/are) like ...
3) badass
THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO
1) Egypt
2) Japan
3) Spain
So I had my audition on Friday and I'm pretty sure I already told everyone in creation how it went. But just in case you are not part of destruction or something weird like that, here's an over view. I lay on the floor in the auditorium type room (ignoring the homework I brought) with over 100 other people ... no one said word for 2+ hours as I soaked in all the nervous energy. Nauseous excitement sloshed around in my stomach as I was finally lead to a hall to do some more purposeful waiting. We were informed that you would sing your best song first. Then, if the judge felt you earned it, you would sing your second. If he liked you still after that he would give you a yellow sheet of paper to fill out for you call back. There were two girls in front of me, one who was really nice and did amazing and got a call back. And one who was obese, obnoxious, and convinced she was amazing ... she sucked. She hit the last note of her first 16 bars and the guy was like "ok thanks!"
Then, it was my turn. I entered the room (walled w/ mirrors ... I looked so cute) and showed the pianist where to start playing. My judge said he couldn't believe this was my first audition, but after my 16 bars of "Forget About the Boy" he seemed to believe me. It was so odd ... I swear I was so nervous it sounded like someone else's voice to me. The judge looked over my resume and asked me about show choir and stuff. He then told me he was not gonna offer me a call back, but hat I would go see the lady as the desk about the next audition for character faces. Apparently I have the perfect look and build for one of the Disney Princesses. (he totally wanted me) I told him, however, that what I really wanted to do was sing. He said that wasn't impossible. "You're voice isn't bad, I think you're working with a good instrument. I just don't think it was as strong as it could have been." He invited me to come back after I worked on this.
So I didn't get a part, or ever the chance to sing my second song, but I got some great constructive criticism. And for being rejected, I feel great. November 19th: birthday and second audition
The rest of my weekend has been spent in the midst of loud situations as I was feeling quiet within myself. More wondering to myself "what am I doing here?" I guess this sensation of being out of place will not be fleeting. But I still cannot place it? I have a routine, a life, friends, purpose ... what am I still looking for?
Current Mood:
Disney Princess