oh yeah, this is why everything sucks
my birthday party ended in shambles if anyone cares. people got pretty drunk, i got annoyed. it really wasn't a party in honor of my birthday it was more of just a party so my feelings were a little hurt. got pissed because some assholes were leaving the party drunk and then driving, then i got pissed because i hate alcohol. then when i tried to go to bed i got screamed at by my roommate and best friend, which basically ended with her yelling fuck you at me several times. so now my apartment is the last place i want to be because moll and i are not on speaking terms. i figure it's her move because she started it. i just figure shit like this is bound to happen to me, if matt and v hadn't been there the night may have been cataclysmic. joanna also came all the way from minneapolis to attend so i was really grateful for that. it's just that like I said before i think especially when your the sober one, everything you like about people, how smart, witty, interesting they are, seems to kind of trickle away with every drink that they have. and then when people start to make upsetting choices you feel like you are responsible for them, when in reality this is college and they should be old enough to take care of themselves. i know that sounds judgmental but whatever, after the weekend i've had i deserve to be. my mom says that the whole argument thing should not even matter because people can't be held accountable to the things they say when they are drunk, and i don't know how to feel about it because on the one hand that may be true, but don't you think that everything people say, even when their drunk is motivated by what they are actually thinking, so for a close friend to turn into a complete bully out of no where has got to be based in something, maybe being intoxicated just helped to bring it out. who knows. i'm coming home for a long weekend though, and i get to see reid's play, and i get to go to Fosse at the Ordway. hopefully people will want to see us, but whatever. the best part of my weekend: Matt cutting my hair, and my birthday present from V.