It should have been dealt with, but wasn't
I had this nasty dream last night wherein my old Supervisor and Candice were here and they were conspiring and I was trying to keep up with them, to be on "their team" but it seemed every time I went to my desk to get my stuff or meet them I was "just a tad behind" them; and a guy at my dream-work I had a crush on, and Candice took him and I had to say nothing because it's not my place... I woke up knowing why I had the dream however.
When Candice swung by the office and Jenn (old Supervisor) came by as a "surprise" they all went to lunch, including another adjuster here. I was slightly offended but it's not as though Candice and I are actually "friends" - however, by a fluke of luck and a stroke of confidentiality, Bossman got an email Friday wherein the President told him Candice can't take adjuster files because she's accepted a role in a national accounts department within the company. I was floored - that's Jenn's new management role and it all became clear. Their past friendship led to the job posting not being listed and it was offered without knowledge to any other staff member. Not only did that now further offend me but it also bothered me for the rest of the staff - what if my colleague who is close to retirement would want the role to stay at home and not work in office anymore? or Darlene, who never wanted to be in-office in the first place? or how about ME? who could use the money as I live downtown and it would be a huge increase? Jenn offered it to Candice who lives far out of the city and owns a house with her partner and has a daughter. Her partner is well off, she is already well off, and dude owned his own home before she got pregnant. That isn't relevant; what is highly relevant is not a single person got that option but Candice because she knows Jenn, and Candice only just got back from Mat Leave two weeks ago.
Would I leave Bossman? no, especially when he saw I noticed his email and he read it and asked if I was worried about Candice. I told him, yes, I was always worried she was coming back from leave to take my job; she was his original administrator. He told me never to lose sleep over that; no one would take my role. And no, she's not coming back to take over. Which relieves me immensely. It doesn't diminish the over-look from Jenn though.
I haven't heard from Sunshine. I am trying to pretend that is ok. It's not, and I dreamt about him Saturday night. I can say nothing further on it.
I go to St. Catharines this weekend to see Mr. and Mrs. Dreamy and I am stoked. Bought my train ticket and a kite for their son. Next month I go to Peterborough, I have to fit in Niagara falls in the budget with the wife, and I somehow have to win the lottery lol
This "pre-menopause" crap sucks. I haven't had zits like this, EVER, and note: I have never really HAD them and yet here we go with these break outs...all over and even in weird places like the skin of the nostril, one of my damn thigh, my upper arms... WTF is this shit? I am okay with getting older; NOT OKAY WITH WAKING UP COVERED IN SWEAT THIS MORNING, or multiple facial zits, OR GETTING FAT no matter how much cardio and weights I do. That doesn't mean I'll give up working out or keeping steady on my cutting back of crap, and cutting down food intake, or scrubbing my face with the sayl-something acid they recommend for aging skin, and it certainly doesn't mean I am going to just sit and cry but I AM going to start back to taking the B12 stuff, and just accept that until this is over there's a chance a ring of sweat is going to gather in the creases of my now pudgy stomach.
Notifications popped for my alert on my truck today but black just doesn't suit me. My beautiful truck is waiting for me out there.
I accidently killed my plant. My landlord said I broke his heart and he's disappointment - his words. Stated "in 24 hours you killed it from the time you took the photo. I was so excited for you. You killed it. You broke my heart" ... damnit lol his wife is going to see if I can use her friends-and-family YMCA card at the end of our street so I can continue working out.
I am just not a plant person.