Things are....
Ok,
Kitten and I have been talking, still working on stuff. But overall doing better. One of the high topics of conversation has been what she now wants to do in regards to shcool.
Feeling disconnected here, she has been looking at other options beyond UIC. MY thoughts...
Well I know if she chooses a school other than here that I will miss her terribly. That I think is a given, but I also think having heard about Smith in MA in particular that is seems like a much better opportunity for her. And personally of all of the options, if she must go away I like that one the best. It still offers the possibility of her being here in Chicago for portions of the year while doing internship. Not a guarantee, but better than almost never getting to see her at all.
Current impacting drawbacks not knowing how much I will get to see her at all through the rest of this month. If she goes out of town to check out the aforementioned schools open house next weekend.... Our time will be what we can make after she is off of work, until March. If seh doesn't we might be able to do Convo... then again maybe she will be able to. As I may be stuck working Sat morning again. I really just don't know on that end.
I don't want her to go, but I also want to be a part of her life in the long term. So if this is where she needs to be. Then I support her choice entirly and have faith that we can work out the little details, like distance.
Work is...challenging. There are games afoot that will end with me having a new vehicle, potentially a NEW vehicle, repaired and reestablished credit, and a greater sense of mobility and monetary security. The catch, commit to some OT which will be readily available with the move into the new plant now underway, and the need to pay back the small loan that will be what aquires said new car. loan being potentially 7-8K. Which again plays into the Kitten being far away and how will that all work. If I commit I can't transit to a new area and leave that behind, I would not feel right doing so in any way. But again by the time the MA college program was done, it would be paid off, and time would have helped to show how the two of us weathered the experiance. Again after recent talkings, I know that we can.
This weekend need to get Rowan with No vehicle, yet, and have someone to watch him Sat morning unless I can talk my boss2(meaning boss of boss) out of it. Since he is five times worse than me on my most scattered days. WEll you get the idea. Hoping my sis can help with the watching.
Otherwise life is life. Glass is in limbo till I can talk to the landlady about setting up shop. Roomate is um....bah we have no roomate. we a Master storage space that pays a third of the bills. Girl is here maybe once twice a week at best, but at least she is working now.
Somewhat disconnected myself here, as I don't really get out too much, and haven't really seen anyone either. Spending my home time at home, with me my self and mind.
And I think this is enough rambilng for now.
Kitten and I have been talking, still working on stuff. But overall doing better. One of the high topics of conversation has been what she now wants to do in regards to shcool.
Feeling disconnected here, she has been looking at other options beyond UIC. MY thoughts...
Well I know if she chooses a school other than here that I will miss her terribly. That I think is a given, but I also think having heard about Smith in MA in particular that is seems like a much better opportunity for her. And personally of all of the options, if she must go away I like that one the best. It still offers the possibility of her being here in Chicago for portions of the year while doing internship. Not a guarantee, but better than almost never getting to see her at all.
Current impacting drawbacks not knowing how much I will get to see her at all through the rest of this month. If she goes out of town to check out the aforementioned schools open house next weekend.... Our time will be what we can make after she is off of work, until March. If seh doesn't we might be able to do Convo... then again maybe she will be able to. As I may be stuck working Sat morning again. I really just don't know on that end.
I don't want her to go, but I also want to be a part of her life in the long term. So if this is where she needs to be. Then I support her choice entirly and have faith that we can work out the little details, like distance.
Work is...challenging. There are games afoot that will end with me having a new vehicle, potentially a NEW vehicle, repaired and reestablished credit, and a greater sense of mobility and monetary security. The catch, commit to some OT which will be readily available with the move into the new plant now underway, and the need to pay back the small loan that will be what aquires said new car. loan being potentially 7-8K. Which again plays into the Kitten being far away and how will that all work. If I commit I can't transit to a new area and leave that behind, I would not feel right doing so in any way. But again by the time the MA college program was done, it would be paid off, and time would have helped to show how the two of us weathered the experiance. Again after recent talkings, I know that we can.
This weekend need to get Rowan with No vehicle, yet, and have someone to watch him Sat morning unless I can talk my boss2(meaning boss of boss) out of it. Since he is five times worse than me on my most scattered days. WEll you get the idea. Hoping my sis can help with the watching.
Otherwise life is life. Glass is in limbo till I can talk to the landlady about setting up shop. Roomate is um....bah we have no roomate. we a Master storage space that pays a third of the bills. Girl is here maybe once twice a week at best, but at least she is working now.
Somewhat disconnected myself here, as I don't really get out too much, and haven't really seen anyone either. Spending my home time at home, with me my self and mind.
And I think this is enough rambilng for now.