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I finally got some sleep but why do I feel so horrible about it? Gabriel has been colicy for 4 days now and I get a average of 3-5 hours of sleep a night. Tonight i couldn't handle it, Gabs colic was worst today, I couldn't set him down. After 14 hours of holding him I got tired and decided to ask allen to watch him while i get some extra rest to get ready for a long night. well, my father heard this and basically said I was being a bad wife and mother making allen watch the baby when he works all day and the baby has bad colic. So I tried staying awake with the baby, when he was finally asleep I put him down and got 10 minutes of deep sleep. Then he started crying, and that is when IU started to cry also. I coukldn't stop, I sorta just flipped out. This, thus, woke allen up, He got the baby and had my mother babysit while I slept. why do i feel like crap that i can't function on 3-5 hours of sleep? I looked online and found a Postpartum Depression chechlist. I have all but one or two symtoms, i thought it wouldn't effect me.....