Smiles...

[sorrowfulwolf]

Since my last real update I've crashed and burned. I hadn't realized how depressed I was until I was having fits of crying just about every night. Between talking to River and Jay I broke down enough to understand the depression, my life was / is stagnant. I was living in darkness wearing a mask of happiness. After I realized that, I started to rip it off piece by piece, building myself up into more of a balanced emotional state. Ryan and I have split up in a way. We still live together, but our relationship is open. Meaning that we can see other people with out any conflict. Last Thursday, Greg, Ryan and I went out to Perv. and it helped me more then I ever thought it would. I've been re-inspired for life again. I've found peace and have relearned to enjoy life.

I should be getting my car back later today or tomorrow (I hope, I hope).

There's been a few other things going on lately, but that is for another time and place. Just know that I'm happy, living for me, loving, and at peace.