Everything must belong somewhere
I keep having this recurring dream that Maddie and I had a son. Mostly the dreams are just me and him, toddler age, taking trips to the park and the zoo or around the house playing games. I always let him win.
I'm not sure how to evaluate this kind of dream. On one level it's really beautiful and on another it's heartbreaking. I don't know why I have dreams like this, especially now, but every night it's the same.
I slept too long today, I was going to wake up and write a paper due later today but I couldn't get myself out of bed. I ended up just not even going to the class and now I just feel guilty about it. I start to do better in school and then I lose all motivation. It's pretty fucked up when I don't even have enough motivation to get out of bed at 1PM. I feel really bad about everything, but , it's like...the worse I feel the less I want to try, and the less I try the worse I feel.
I'm trying to convince myself to just snap out of it but it hasn't worked so far.
I'm reading a biography of Eugene Debs, the Socialist candidate for president in the first quarter of the 20th century. His story is really inspiring and maybe I can mimic his hard work and frantic drive and apply it to my own endeavors.
I'm not sure how to evaluate this kind of dream. On one level it's really beautiful and on another it's heartbreaking. I don't know why I have dreams like this, especially now, but every night it's the same.
I slept too long today, I was going to wake up and write a paper due later today but I couldn't get myself out of bed. I ended up just not even going to the class and now I just feel guilty about it. I start to do better in school and then I lose all motivation. It's pretty fucked up when I don't even have enough motivation to get out of bed at 1PM. I feel really bad about everything, but , it's like...the worse I feel the less I want to try, and the less I try the worse I feel.
I'm trying to convince myself to just snap out of it but it hasn't worked so far.
I'm reading a biography of Eugene Debs, the Socialist candidate for president in the first quarter of the 20th century. His story is really inspiring and maybe I can mimic his hard work and frantic drive and apply it to my own endeavors.