fandom; JE, HSJ
characters/Pairings; Yamajima, slight Yamabu
rating; PG-13 at most
title; Epsilon
comments; Not an official claim for
1sentence, just something I felt like doing on a rainy afternoon. Prepare for somewhat run on sentences and the abuse of the semi-colon. They suck... because I'm braindead.
#01 - Motion
Making the first move was something both of them weren't good at (Yabu nudged Yamada a little; Hikaru had to give Yuto a big shove).
#02 - Cool
Yuto and Chinen stared in awe as they watched Ryuu solve cases with his sharp wit before they could even tear their eyes away from the television screen; Chinen told Yuto that there was a bit of drool on the corner of his lip halfway through the episode.
#03 - Young
When they held hands, no one thought it meant anything - they were too young.
#04 - Last
The last time they had communicated like best friends normally would was a few months ago, when work didn't keep Yamada preoccupied.
#05 - Wrong
"We've already been through this, my favorite color is orange," Yamada sighs when Yuto gives him a t-shirt to match with his.
#06 - Gentle
It's funny how Yuto's words are always the kindest when he's around.
#07 - One
Polygamy, they joke with Chinen, Takaki and Arioka, but they truly wish it wasn't so.
#08 - Thousand
He gets a thousand letters each day; it's no wonder Yuto's fanmail hasn't reached him.
#09 - King
Yamada didn't know a thing about politics - being the prime minister of Japan was one thing, but ruling over Yuto's heart was another matter altogether.
#10 - Learn
Memorizing the lyrics for their songs were easy; Yuto's bastardized versions are the ones he can't get out of his head.
#11 - Blur
When he watches the concert fancams on the internet, Yuto concludes that Yamada is one of the sexiest blurs he's ever seen.
#12 - Wait
An answer is the one of the many things Yuto is willing to wait for from him; Yamada had already forgotten what the question was.
#13 - Change
Yuto's growing up so fast, Yamada can never seem to catch up; in the meantime, Yuto wonders since when did Yamada outgrow him.
#14 - Command
Quit it, he would say, but he never listens, and he doesn't care.
#15 - Hold
Whenever Yamada puts Yuto on hold, Yuto starts panicking and almost needs to seek medical attention.
#16 - Need
The mere concept of Yamada was like a drug.
#17 - Vision
When Yuto sees Yamada enter the room, he tells Keito to pinch him for good measure.
#18 - Attention
His whining was getting on everyone's nerves but it was the only way Yamada could make sure that he still cared.
#19 - Soul
Yuto shuts Chinen up with Yamada before the boy spouts out another Arashi pun.
#20 - Picture
Pencil in hand, sketchbook in the other and tongue in cheek, Yamada doesn't even need to tell him to hold still - most of the time.
#21 - Fool
Yamada can't believe he fell for the same old "oh look, you have something on your lip, let me get it for you" trick again.
#22 - Mad
"I'M NOT TALKING TO YOU," Yamada scoffs at the boy who made him drop his only ice cream cone; Yuto comes back after a minute with two.
#23 - Child
He remembers the first time a girl rejected him; that was the time he invited himself over to Yamada's house to bawl like a kid over his failed attempts with cold milk and freshly-baked cookies.
#24 - Now
He's busy with another drama and he tells Yuto not to call him for the next few weeks; they keep a distance, for perhaps it is better for them if they stayed like just this for now.
#25 - Shadow
For once, Yuto wanted to be in the audience to admire the enigmatic silhouette Yamada cast on the blank tapestry.
#26 - Goodbye
"Until next time," Yuto says; his words keep on playing over and over in Yamada mind -- he can't wait for tomorrow.
#27 - Hide
Yamada shows up at his doorstep, soaking wet; in a small voice, he says he left his umbrella at home.
#28 - Fortune
Told that the stars never lie, Yuto sulked; Yamada was a Taurus and he was a Leo - they weren't compatible at all!
#29 - Safe
Yuto never gets bullied, Yamada can punch; Yuto realizes that the fact that he can't defend himself is pretty lame.
#30 - Ghost
With Yamada shivering under his sheets, Yuto knows best to turn the night light on whenever his friend comes over to sleep at his place.
#31 - Book
When Yuto begins narrating everything that Yamada does to himself, he knows he's been reading too much fan fiction.
#32 - Eye
Charming his eyes were, yet Yuto didn't understand why Yamada never looked at him face to face whenever they spoke.
#33 - Never
"Leave me alone," Yamada says through gritted teeth one last time.
#34 - Sing
Off-key, off-tune and on the wrong beat, it doesn't matter to them whenever they sing together at karaoke bars; they know from the bottom of their hearts that they both suck at this anyway, so why would it matter?
#35 - Sudden
Yamada's clumsiness, Yuto's presence and the Earth's gravity was all that it took to crash themselves into each other and bring them together in a span of a second.
#36 - Stop
It's what Yamada tells him to do once he hears someone coming.
#37 - Time
Five minutes before they go on air, more than three years since they've known each other and a brief moment is what they make of to say all they've ever wanted to - and in that moment, no words were said.
#38 - Wash
"My clothes are at the cleaners," Yamada lies to the rest of 7 when he arrives with Yuto wearing a shirt two sizes too big.
#39 - Torn
The magazine clippings, the shop photos, the posters, the pamphlets - even the paparazzi pictures of them together - Yuto has them all up on his bedroom wall, especially that one photo evidently torn at the side; Yamada has the other half.
#40 - History
Those days are over, Yuto realizes and accepts as he watches Yamada from backstage perform on stage solo, soaking in the spotlight.
#41 - Power
When Hikaru tells them, "See, even Keito says it's ultora music power," Yuto and Yamada exchange looks ("He probably scared him shitless first," Yamada infers.)
#42 - Bother
After catching a pair of juniors in a compromising position, Yuto calls out to Yamada, his voice echoing in the hallway, "Yama-chan, I guess we can't do it in the janitor's closet today - Yabu-kun and Shoon-kun have it booked for the next half hour."
#43 - God
Like an angel, Takaki described him - Takaki, Yuto knew, had no idea.
#44 - Wall
The wall at that secluded corner of the NHK Hall was the wall with many firsts attached to its memory - Hikaru's first work of art, Taiyo's first head-on collision with concrete, and Yamada's first legitimate kiss with Yuto (surprisingly, it was Yamada who tried to pin Yuto down first before the both of them decided that it would be too awkward that way).
#45 - Naked
Yuto is amused at how conservative Yamada is during dance practice; sometimes, when no one else is around, Yuto tells him it's okay to take it all off (but they end up not practicing anyway).
#46 - Drive
Realizing that he can't drive anything with an engine without a license, Yuto calls up all the senpai on his contacts list to ask them to take he and Yamada to the movies.
#47 - Harm
It's not the paper cut that Yamada gives Yuto when he snatches that letter from him that stings; it's the interval between the time blood flows out and the time Yamada doesn't use to say sorry before he walks away.
#48 - Precious
"Mine," Yuto declares.
#49 - Hunger
"I told you, it's not for eating," Yamada scolds as he swats Yuto's hand away from his shoulder.
#50 - Believe
Yuto likes to pretend that it's real - that the things that Yamada does aren't so scripted, that everything that he says about Yamada is true, that Yamada isn't lying when he tells him that they can't go home together today because of a cold, that he and Yamada are best friends and Yamada feels the same way; his delusions are crushed when Yamada shrugs him off as soon as the cameras stop rolling - Yamada lets go, but Yuto still holds on believing.