Slowly disappear, no..no longer here...
I got back from Charlotte last night. I drove from the Florida-Georgia border down to Fort Lauderdale. A good five hour drive, and I managed to stay awake the whole time. My trip to Charlotte was extremely bitter-sweet; While I loved being up there with my family, at a place that felt like home, and being able to just relax it wasn't all it could be. Mostly, as horrible as this sounds, because of my Grandparents. We couldn't do much of anything because if they wouldn't want to do it then we pretty much didn't do it. My brother and I just spent a lot of time together and hung out and such but most of the plans I had for the whole family were shot to shit.
This is the last time I ever go up with any other adults. When I go back up to Charlotte I'm going by myself, or at least with people who can at least have a good time.
I've had a pretty lame day today. Had to go to Miami, got lost, my insurance is fuckin' stupid, got drenched, cleaned a house just so kids could come and undo all the work I just did.
I have to go look up student loans this week, I hate this shit. Today was seriously one of those sorts of days where you just want to say, "fuck it!" and give up. I thought about what would happen if I did that, it'd take a lot of my current problems off of my shoulders but other than that I'd be screwed in the long run.
I want to be in Orlando. I want a home to come to during breaks. I want to hug my Mom more often. I want to be able to hang out with my little brother all the time. I want my friends. I want my girlfriend. I want to get away from it all.
Life should be easier.
This is the last time I ever go up with any other adults. When I go back up to Charlotte I'm going by myself, or at least with people who can at least have a good time.
I've had a pretty lame day today. Had to go to Miami, got lost, my insurance is fuckin' stupid, got drenched, cleaned a house just so kids could come and undo all the work I just did.
I have to go look up student loans this week, I hate this shit. Today was seriously one of those sorts of days where you just want to say, "fuck it!" and give up. I thought about what would happen if I did that, it'd take a lot of my current problems off of my shoulders but other than that I'd be screwed in the long run.
I want to be in Orlando. I want a home to come to during breaks. I want to hug my Mom more often. I want to be able to hang out with my little brother all the time. I want my friends. I want my girlfriend. I want to get away from it all.
Life should be easier.