a big deal?
so i spend the morning debating, and decide that i need to cool it with the external validation, and should not go to the contest if it means lots more stress (which it does.) i resign myself to one less laurel, call, cancel, and am done.
and then:
Hi John,
I am a Chinese lecturer at Columbia U. I heard from Professor Liu Lening, the director of Chinese Program, that you applied for the speech contest taking place tomorrow. And I also heard that you don't plan on going it any more.
The purpose of my email is to encourage you go there and display your talents. You will have a good time.
If you need any help or have any questions, let me know via email or call me at (608) 332-0331.
Best,
Xurong
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when i replied that i just couldn't, she said:
What you said is understandable. I respect your decision. It, however, is bad to not have you there.
I appreciate her concern, but now i feel guilty, like i was supposed to represent the school or something. the chinese dept is really big on making itself known as the best best best in the country. but i would have done a shitty job!
aiya, hen mafan...get me out of NY and into Beijing. Turns out this woman Xurong will be my professor in Beijing for 10 weeks. weird...
i realized that i am almost always happy if i am speaking a foreign language. especially chinese. it doesn't really leave room for ambivalence. things are, are not, or are a little bit so. hard to explain, but it makes me more direct in my speech.
in the end, i liked king kong, or at least, i like the amazing graphics. and the savages. those kooky, generic, monstrous savages and their giant monster island. neato!
and then:
Hi John,
I am a Chinese lecturer at Columbia U. I heard from Professor Liu Lening, the director of Chinese Program, that you applied for the speech contest taking place tomorrow. And I also heard that you don't plan on going it any more.
The purpose of my email is to encourage you go there and display your talents. You will have a good time.
If you need any help or have any questions, let me know via email or call me at (608) 332-0331.
Best,
Xurong
--
when i replied that i just couldn't, she said:
What you said is understandable. I respect your decision. It, however, is bad to not have you there.
I appreciate her concern, but now i feel guilty, like i was supposed to represent the school or something. the chinese dept is really big on making itself known as the best best best in the country. but i would have done a shitty job!
aiya, hen mafan...get me out of NY and into Beijing. Turns out this woman Xurong will be my professor in Beijing for 10 weeks. weird...
i realized that i am almost always happy if i am speaking a foreign language. especially chinese. it doesn't really leave room for ambivalence. things are, are not, or are a little bit so. hard to explain, but it makes me more direct in my speech.
in the end, i liked king kong, or at least, i like the amazing graphics. and the savages. those kooky, generic, monstrous savages and their giant monster island. neato!