The Night That Changed Everything 2
Right still not sure about what im doing with this.... if anything. Im new to this even though i have been reading for quite a while. Im gonna try different POV and also a general one. Inevitably its all building up to something thats going to change Sophie's life. But i dont know what yet but anyway.
That night changed everything.
She didn’t deserve for this to happen to her.
All she had been taught in life wouldn’t help her in this battle. This was one she had to go alone.
She had lost herself along time ago; she knew that. She just didn’t know how to get back what she had lost.
She had a good life but it had slowly been crushed in what she believed: the hands of God.
That night she was lost and no one around her could see how lost she actually was until it was too late.
Sophie’s POV
What the hell have I done in life to deserve what’s being thrown at me? Seriously!
Was it me falling in love with Sian or is it just one of those obstacles that God decides to throw your way once in a while. Or for me every frickin time something good comes along!!
Right I know I should have told her sooner about college but I mean come on what did she expect. My so called family is falling apart and I can’t do anything to stop it. She’s been nagging me for ages about school but how the hell am I supposed to concentrate on it with everything going on. It’s like I don’t exist in this family. Always flamin’ Rosie this and Rosie that. She says she does it so mum and dad notice but seriously how thick is that girl. They show her all their attention and there isn’t an ounce left for me.
So I’m currently curled up on the sofa watching Jeremy Kyle as you do when your feeling shit about your life; you sit and listen to people talk about their shitter life. Which inevitably makes your life look that little bit better. Mum still hasn’t even noticed that I haven’t gone to college in a week but that’s what I expected. Have I some how melted into the surroundings of the house and stay there unnoticed until she decides she wants something. Hmm maybe I should see if I can get a couple bottles of cider to tie me over….
And there’s the door. Probably won’t even notice me here….. Maybe not, as they have decided to stand right in front of the TV which had a very interesting family on it let me tell you. Speak Sophie speak…
“Right, if you’d slept with your best friend’s dad while your best friend’s mum was having a life saving operation would you go on telly and share your shame with the nation?” WHAT! That’s what my stupid brain decides to come out with! No wonder I got chucked out of college. Great now I’m laughing inside my head.
“Why didn’t you call me back?” Yep that’s night im that cool I forgot to phone my girlfriend back. Maybe if I refer back to what I said she will forget it. Worth a shot I suppose.
“Eww especially if you looked like Shrek.” WOW nope not the best thing to do. You should see her face right now she looks like she’s gonna knock my block off. She’s coming closer and …. Nope she’s sat down beside me. Geez make my heart race why don’t she; and no not in a good way either.
“Soph... I’m sorry for just leaving this morning. Just can you please talk to me babe, your shutting me out and I want to help you best I can but you don’t seem to want it.” Shit now she looks like she’s about to cry. She has been trying to help me but no one can. Its my parents doing so until they sort themselves out...
“Babe im sorry ok. I know I should have told you about college and I also know I shouldn’t be getting bladdered. But I dunno what I can do now. The principal told me I can’t go back, I have to reapply next year. And I’m living in a warzone if you haven’t noticed”
“And encase you haven’t noticed I am living in it too” What the hell. I thought we were going to have a civil conversation but obviously I just make everything turn to dust with one touch.
“Ye well that’s different” and it is different. It’s not her parents and it’s not her getting caught up in the middle. I know I might be being selfish here because her parent’s well correction Vinnie disowned her but still.
“Sophie I know you’re going through a hard time but if you can’t open up and talk to me then what am I still doing here?” Wait is she actually being serious. Just because I don’t tell her exactly how im feeling she doesn’t want a relationship. Told you God kept throwing things at me didn’t I?
“What are you still doing here? Are you serious Sian? Your my girlfriend and i need your support. But You know what? I thought you loved me and that normally meant being there for me through the good times and the bad times. Just because im not telling you how am feeling doesn’t mean I don’t still love you because i do love you, its just I don’t know what you want me to say!”
Right this is not going how I wanted it to go. Now she’s crying and yep you guessed it so am I.
“Ye well don’t tell me Sophie, tell the nation!!”
And now she’s walked out the door again. I seriously can’t do anything right can I? Right I should probably go after her shouldn’t I? Idiot I am!
That’s what I did; ran out the door after her.
That night changed everything.
She didn’t deserve for this to happen to her.
All she had been taught in life wouldn’t help her in this battle. This was one she had to go alone.
She had lost herself along time ago; she knew that. She just didn’t know how to get back what she had lost.
She had a good life but it had slowly been crushed in what she believed: the hands of God.
That night she was lost and no one around her could see how lost she actually was until it was too late.
Sophie’s POV
What the hell have I done in life to deserve what’s being thrown at me? Seriously!
Was it me falling in love with Sian or is it just one of those obstacles that God decides to throw your way once in a while. Or for me every frickin time something good comes along!!
Right I know I should have told her sooner about college but I mean come on what did she expect. My so called family is falling apart and I can’t do anything to stop it. She’s been nagging me for ages about school but how the hell am I supposed to concentrate on it with everything going on. It’s like I don’t exist in this family. Always flamin’ Rosie this and Rosie that. She says she does it so mum and dad notice but seriously how thick is that girl. They show her all their attention and there isn’t an ounce left for me.
So I’m currently curled up on the sofa watching Jeremy Kyle as you do when your feeling shit about your life; you sit and listen to people talk about their shitter life. Which inevitably makes your life look that little bit better. Mum still hasn’t even noticed that I haven’t gone to college in a week but that’s what I expected. Have I some how melted into the surroundings of the house and stay there unnoticed until she decides she wants something. Hmm maybe I should see if I can get a couple bottles of cider to tie me over….
And there’s the door. Probably won’t even notice me here….. Maybe not, as they have decided to stand right in front of the TV which had a very interesting family on it let me tell you. Speak Sophie speak…
“Right, if you’d slept with your best friend’s dad while your best friend’s mum was having a life saving operation would you go on telly and share your shame with the nation?” WHAT! That’s what my stupid brain decides to come out with! No wonder I got chucked out of college. Great now I’m laughing inside my head.
“Why didn’t you call me back?” Yep that’s night im that cool I forgot to phone my girlfriend back. Maybe if I refer back to what I said she will forget it. Worth a shot I suppose.
“Eww especially if you looked like Shrek.” WOW nope not the best thing to do. You should see her face right now she looks like she’s gonna knock my block off. She’s coming closer and …. Nope she’s sat down beside me. Geez make my heart race why don’t she; and no not in a good way either.
“Soph... I’m sorry for just leaving this morning. Just can you please talk to me babe, your shutting me out and I want to help you best I can but you don’t seem to want it.” Shit now she looks like she’s about to cry. She has been trying to help me but no one can. Its my parents doing so until they sort themselves out...
“Babe im sorry ok. I know I should have told you about college and I also know I shouldn’t be getting bladdered. But I dunno what I can do now. The principal told me I can’t go back, I have to reapply next year. And I’m living in a warzone if you haven’t noticed”
“And encase you haven’t noticed I am living in it too” What the hell. I thought we were going to have a civil conversation but obviously I just make everything turn to dust with one touch.
“Ye well that’s different” and it is different. It’s not her parents and it’s not her getting caught up in the middle. I know I might be being selfish here because her parent’s well correction Vinnie disowned her but still.
“Sophie I know you’re going through a hard time but if you can’t open up and talk to me then what am I still doing here?” Wait is she actually being serious. Just because I don’t tell her exactly how im feeling she doesn’t want a relationship. Told you God kept throwing things at me didn’t I?
“What are you still doing here? Are you serious Sian? Your my girlfriend and i need your support. But You know what? I thought you loved me and that normally meant being there for me through the good times and the bad times. Just because im not telling you how am feeling doesn’t mean I don’t still love you because i do love you, its just I don’t know what you want me to say!”
Right this is not going how I wanted it to go. Now she’s crying and yep you guessed it so am I.
“Ye well don’t tell me Sophie, tell the nation!!”
And now she’s walked out the door again. I seriously can’t do anything right can I? Right I should probably go after her shouldn’t I? Idiot I am!
That’s what I did; ran out the door after her.