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music, is not meant to be taken litteral and used in real life. I feel like my life is that song on the radio that plays way too much.
(half an hour later)Wow, I just went to your page and that song is now on there.
I know that you're not telling me the real reasons. You haven't been online so much in so long. You're acting just like you did when you were breaking up with Colleen. Remember? That's how we got started in the first place. I wish I never said anything. I wish I never begged you to come over that night. If I didn't make you then we'd be together right now and things would be ok. We'd be discussing our future and making plans together. I think that you don't love me anymore. I think that you want someone else. I know that if you are ever with someone else, we will never be together again. I think that you're not telling me because you think it is gonna hurt me. I think it hurts more because I have no closure. I wish, I wish, I wish that it wasn't so hard for you to just love me the right way. I wish that stupid fucking song wasn't on your page because it makes me feel really really shitty.
I'm giving you your space. BUT do not think for one fucking minute that I do not care. I'm scared that if I don't make an attempt here and there that you will think that I just don't care. I am also scared that if I do that then you will hate me for not leaving you alone. I'm just scared. One day you love me, the next day you hate me. I wish I could make your world better and if I could I would do everything that it would take.
(half an hour later)Wow, I just went to your page and that song is now on there.
I know that you're not telling me the real reasons. You haven't been online so much in so long. You're acting just like you did when you were breaking up with Colleen. Remember? That's how we got started in the first place. I wish I never said anything. I wish I never begged you to come over that night. If I didn't make you then we'd be together right now and things would be ok. We'd be discussing our future and making plans together. I think that you don't love me anymore. I think that you want someone else. I know that if you are ever with someone else, we will never be together again. I think that you're not telling me because you think it is gonna hurt me. I think it hurts more because I have no closure. I wish, I wish, I wish that it wasn't so hard for you to just love me the right way. I wish that stupid fucking song wasn't on your page because it makes me feel really really shitty.
I'm giving you your space. BUT do not think for one fucking minute that I do not care. I'm scared that if I don't make an attempt here and there that you will think that I just don't care. I am also scared that if I do that then you will hate me for not leaving you alone. I'm just scared. One day you love me, the next day you hate me. I wish I could make your world better and if I could I would do everything that it would take.