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sooooo I feel like a shitty friend. I shopped, with my mom, for 5 and a half hours yesterday trying to find a stupid hand-me-down prom dress to wear to Meg's b-day party. I didn't find one and I didn't go. I wasn't gonna show up in regular clothes and look like an asshole. It's bad enough I get super anxiety around all her friends..... cuz I am nothing like them and I stand out like a sore thumb. I'm NEVER comfortable with anyone but Meg. It's weird and I hate that. I did get her something for her b-day so I will have to give that to her soon. I also slipped up and said something that I've been kinda hiding for a long ass time. I feel really bad about that. I'm sure right now she hates me. I feel bad and I needed to get that out of my system.