And so I go to sleep
Tomorrow is going to suck, just like these past days have sucked. Why have they sucked? Because I haven't seen tim since Saturday, and I've only talked to him twice on the phone since then, and the conversation has not lasted more than 30 seconds each time. I have never felt more alone in my life. And it's strange, although I don't feel the depression that I would have expected, I almost feel as if we as a couple never existed. I didn't talk to any of his friends (except the ones at work with whom we did not discuss Timothy), I didn't visit Jo, I didn't do anything that Tim and I do. Missing all of this makes me feel as if he was all in my head.
Luckily I got a phone call (sadly it was just a voice mail) that Tim is coming home tomorrow. However, I won't get to see him for the simple reason that I'm working until close tomorrow. It saddens me a little, but I think I'll survive. I'll get lay in his arms tomorrow night and that's all that matters.
I didn't do much today. I got up, got dressed, visited Grandma L., spent some time with mom, got free ice cream, and came home. I started cleaning my room. I'm tired of living in this mess. I need to get the clothes off my floor, the trash in a trash bag, and I need to get rid of the things I don't use nor want anymore. I've succeeded in doing some of these things. I even got to move my furniture around. I've been wanting to do that for a while. Though, I only moved three pieces: my bed, the stand, and my book case. The dresser and the desk are really fine where they are. Moving the bed adds alot of space to my room. I moved everything before I was finished cleaning, so there are piles of things (trash, clothes, etc) all over my floor, and barely any room to walk in my closet, but I have made progress today. Now it should only take me a couple more days. I will then have Friday completely free to work on my portfolio. I will have this thing done before I go back to school.
Todd gave me three days off next week. Tim did want to go camping those three days, and while I appreciate the gesture, I can't. I MUST work on my portfolio. I can't delay this anylonger. My entire future relies on me passing. I'm really only concerned about not having enough pieces, and not having them look nice enough. This is why I need to make sure that I get them done before school starts that way I have time to take my time.
Tomorrow I see the dentist in the morning. I'm hoping I don't have cavities, that would really suck. I haven't been keeping up with my brushing...For something so easy and simple to do I am really lazy about doing it. However, I am determined to get that and keeping my room cleaned and organized. I even made folders for my bank statements (I did this after finding out I have to keep them for over 7 years).
Things are slowly starting to get into gear. I got my new credit card in the mail. For those of you who don't know I got a credit card about a month ago, and I racked up a nice little bill. I, of course, paid this bill off, but find out the next day that they are charging me for an overlimit fee that I didn't know about until after I paid my bill. Wanna know how much I was over? 34 cents. I was over 34 cents and they asked that I pay an overlimit fee of $35. I was not happy. So me and the parentals went to the bank. The manager there didn't even hesitate to take the fee off. He even said that, if I wanted, he would send me a new card with a hire limit on it (my limit on this previous card was $1000). I got my new card yesterday and it isn't a simple college card....it's a platinum with an APR of 10%, how sweet is that?! I think my other card was 15%. Anywho, tomorrow I have to cancel my other card and cut it up.
I checked my mail today and the school is finally asking for tuition. They took off the Health Center charges that should have gone to my health insurance. Yay on that. Except now they want me to pay $1,234 for Health Insurance. I sent them an email, asking politley that they remove the charge since I already have a health insurance company and don't need the schools. That should bring my tuition down. I didn't realize room and board was $3,000. Anywho, now I just have to pay the billies off, balance my check book, and pay people back and I'll be in good shape. I love it when things start to come together.
Now I only hope that I don't have cavaties...
Luckily I got a phone call (sadly it was just a voice mail) that Tim is coming home tomorrow. However, I won't get to see him for the simple reason that I'm working until close tomorrow. It saddens me a little, but I think I'll survive. I'll get lay in his arms tomorrow night and that's all that matters.
I didn't do much today. I got up, got dressed, visited Grandma L., spent some time with mom, got free ice cream, and came home. I started cleaning my room. I'm tired of living in this mess. I need to get the clothes off my floor, the trash in a trash bag, and I need to get rid of the things I don't use nor want anymore. I've succeeded in doing some of these things. I even got to move my furniture around. I've been wanting to do that for a while. Though, I only moved three pieces: my bed, the stand, and my book case. The dresser and the desk are really fine where they are. Moving the bed adds alot of space to my room. I moved everything before I was finished cleaning, so there are piles of things (trash, clothes, etc) all over my floor, and barely any room to walk in my closet, but I have made progress today. Now it should only take me a couple more days. I will then have Friday completely free to work on my portfolio. I will have this thing done before I go back to school.
Todd gave me three days off next week. Tim did want to go camping those three days, and while I appreciate the gesture, I can't. I MUST work on my portfolio. I can't delay this anylonger. My entire future relies on me passing. I'm really only concerned about not having enough pieces, and not having them look nice enough. This is why I need to make sure that I get them done before school starts that way I have time to take my time.
Tomorrow I see the dentist in the morning. I'm hoping I don't have cavities, that would really suck. I haven't been keeping up with my brushing...For something so easy and simple to do I am really lazy about doing it. However, I am determined to get that and keeping my room cleaned and organized. I even made folders for my bank statements (I did this after finding out I have to keep them for over 7 years).
Things are slowly starting to get into gear. I got my new credit card in the mail. For those of you who don't know I got a credit card about a month ago, and I racked up a nice little bill. I, of course, paid this bill off, but find out the next day that they are charging me for an overlimit fee that I didn't know about until after I paid my bill. Wanna know how much I was over? 34 cents. I was over 34 cents and they asked that I pay an overlimit fee of $35. I was not happy. So me and the parentals went to the bank. The manager there didn't even hesitate to take the fee off. He even said that, if I wanted, he would send me a new card with a hire limit on it (my limit on this previous card was $1000). I got my new card yesterday and it isn't a simple college card....it's a platinum with an APR of 10%, how sweet is that?! I think my other card was 15%. Anywho, tomorrow I have to cancel my other card and cut it up.
I checked my mail today and the school is finally asking for tuition. They took off the Health Center charges that should have gone to my health insurance. Yay on that. Except now they want me to pay $1,234 for Health Insurance. I sent them an email, asking politley that they remove the charge since I already have a health insurance company and don't need the schools. That should bring my tuition down. I didn't realize room and board was $3,000. Anywho, now I just have to pay the billies off, balance my check book, and pay people back and I'll be in good shape. I love it when things start to come together.
Now I only hope that I don't have cavaties...