"We'll never get...
...to heaven till we reach that day!" (Till we Reach that Day-Ragtime)
As i sit here, avoiding my finals, i'm listening to "Ragtime" a cd i haven't heard since closing night. Yes, it still makes me cry, i can't make it past the first 2 mins of the opening number without crying...and the opening number is 10 mins. long! So can imagine the amount of tears there are at the moment.
There are a million emotions going through me right now, you can't even imagine. I though being apart would make the healing proccess easier. You know, out if sight out of mind. But yet...it's the exact opposite. He sent a message, after he swore to disappear, I replied. He answered, i got annoyed. I waited and no one knows...till now i replied back. What reaction i'll get i don't know. I'm actually quite scared. Why i don't know...no wait i know. Because i know history is to repeat itself (possible). It's nothing but circles... this shouldn't be happening. Why is it happening? Is this suppose to be happening? Am I in love with being in love? Is he? Is it love? Is it lust? Is there a reason? Will everything be okay?
I don't know....
As i sit here, avoiding my finals, i'm listening to "Ragtime" a cd i haven't heard since closing night. Yes, it still makes me cry, i can't make it past the first 2 mins of the opening number without crying...and the opening number is 10 mins. long! So can imagine the amount of tears there are at the moment.
There are a million emotions going through me right now, you can't even imagine. I though being apart would make the healing proccess easier. You know, out if sight out of mind. But yet...it's the exact opposite. He sent a message, after he swore to disappear, I replied. He answered, i got annoyed. I waited and no one knows...till now i replied back. What reaction i'll get i don't know. I'm actually quite scared. Why i don't know...no wait i know. Because i know history is to repeat itself (possible). It's nothing but circles... this shouldn't be happening. Why is it happening? Is this suppose to be happening? Am I in love with being in love? Is he? Is it love? Is it lust? Is there a reason? Will everything be okay?
I don't know....