11/03/22
I've been wanting to do three main things since I was a kid:
- Learn to dance and join a dance troupe that performs
- Paint landscapes
- Delve into pottery
There's always been reasons not to. I'm too shy, classes are too expensive, learning dance routines is hard for me, no one will want to see me dance, I can't paint, it's going to come out looking bad, I'm not "that kind" of artist, etc. And yet. And yet I long for all three - all three wisps that I've decided to just long for instead of trying and failing.
I'm crying and I don't know why. There's a mockingbird on a branch on the tree in front of my apartment.
I've hit something important.