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jazz jazz jazz blues

froggie send this my way this morning

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it's go fucking good I could have fucking cried

I used to listen to Duvet by Boa and think of J
during and after everything

Ian just turned it on randomly and my head caved in

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"born of the sea
blink
the sea is dead
falls out of me these sockets in my head"

it's terrifying.
but I'm getting used to it

in the back of my mind I constantly hear the voice and see a closeup of the side of the mask, the words hovering lightly somewhere to the left

'prison or in hell'

folk implosion
dredg
sunna

oh god I remember all these bands from when I was a teenager.
redownloading.

I remember

Sitting sideways
Something deep
Wading water
Pants at my knees

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I have moments this week where I feel like I'm fucking losing my mind. And I know it's all these emotions I didn't let myself feel coming flooding up, but I keep feeling compelled to scream that it's too much

How do you cope with working ass early on your day off?

Reggae. Lots and lots of beautiful reggae.