Its Funny How Time Flies...
Months have passed since I've written in this journal. I feel like so much has changed yet its all oddly the same.
I quit kickboxing. Moved onto better things I guess. I joined LAFitness. I'm there almost 6 days a week. I like it. Its like therapy. No personal relationships. No instructor hassles. The classes are good. And I can just focus on myself. Joe, Jacki, and Jimmy joined with me. We go together sometimes or we'll meet up there. I like that.
For a little while I was dating this guy Nick. What a mistake. I thought its what I wanted. Companionship. But there was nothing between us. Well, atleast nothing I felt for him. He said I love you to me. It drove me insane. Alot of the things he did drove me insane. We just didn't connect. Maybe. I didn't let myself. Or maybe it really wasn't there. Either way. Its over. And I'm glad about it.
A few weeks ago I hooked up with a really old friend of mine, Gary. THAT was weird. We've been friends since the day I came to North Babylon. But he was a year older, graduated, and then went into the Navy. I hadn't seen him in three years. He told me that he'd liked me forever and that I was so this and that. Some very nice things. The situation did get weird though. We're still friends. And we might see each other again. I dunno. I'm not going to make a huge deal out of it. He lives in VA.
Caitlin came home for 2 weeks. That was like a month ago I guess. But God it was so good to have her home. She got engaged to her boyfriend Shaun. I'm happy for them. He's a good guy. I love that girl so much. I hate that she lives so far away. I'm going to try and get down there by the end of April.
I'm going to see my dad April 9th. Weird huh?? I haven't seen him in 7 years. His wife died. He's got 3 kids to raise by himself. I feel kinda bad. I don't think I should. I mean my mom had me to raise alone. But its still really hard when someone looses a spouse. I found out that my mom had been lying to me all of my life on why my dad really left. And how the whole divorce was. He did try to take the house but he wanted me. He wanted rights. He used to come to the house and bang on the door and beg my mom just to see me for 5 minutes. I never knew any of that. And my grandparents used to send me cards every holiday but my mom never showed any of them to me. She never even told me. Finding all of that out was tough. I cried for 3 days pretty much. And there was really no one I could talk to about it. I mean obviously I told my friends but none of them really have any idea about my situation. I mean, they can't relate to it at all. I wish I had someone that did. But I really did appreciate the shoulders I got.
So what else? A ton I guess. I don't feel like typing anymore though. I don't want to say I'm going to update more, cause who knows. But I'd like to try. I wanna take a little nap before I go to the gym... So maybe I'll see ya... sooner or later..
Peace.
I quit kickboxing. Moved onto better things I guess. I joined LAFitness. I'm there almost 6 days a week. I like it. Its like therapy. No personal relationships. No instructor hassles. The classes are good. And I can just focus on myself. Joe, Jacki, and Jimmy joined with me. We go together sometimes or we'll meet up there. I like that.
For a little while I was dating this guy Nick. What a mistake. I thought its what I wanted. Companionship. But there was nothing between us. Well, atleast nothing I felt for him. He said I love you to me. It drove me insane. Alot of the things he did drove me insane. We just didn't connect. Maybe. I didn't let myself. Or maybe it really wasn't there. Either way. Its over. And I'm glad about it.
A few weeks ago I hooked up with a really old friend of mine, Gary. THAT was weird. We've been friends since the day I came to North Babylon. But he was a year older, graduated, and then went into the Navy. I hadn't seen him in three years. He told me that he'd liked me forever and that I was so this and that. Some very nice things. The situation did get weird though. We're still friends. And we might see each other again. I dunno. I'm not going to make a huge deal out of it. He lives in VA.
Caitlin came home for 2 weeks. That was like a month ago I guess. But God it was so good to have her home. She got engaged to her boyfriend Shaun. I'm happy for them. He's a good guy. I love that girl so much. I hate that she lives so far away. I'm going to try and get down there by the end of April.
I'm going to see my dad April 9th. Weird huh?? I haven't seen him in 7 years. His wife died. He's got 3 kids to raise by himself. I feel kinda bad. I don't think I should. I mean my mom had me to raise alone. But its still really hard when someone looses a spouse. I found out that my mom had been lying to me all of my life on why my dad really left. And how the whole divorce was. He did try to take the house but he wanted me. He wanted rights. He used to come to the house and bang on the door and beg my mom just to see me for 5 minutes. I never knew any of that. And my grandparents used to send me cards every holiday but my mom never showed any of them to me. She never even told me. Finding all of that out was tough. I cried for 3 days pretty much. And there was really no one I could talk to about it. I mean obviously I told my friends but none of them really have any idea about my situation. I mean, they can't relate to it at all. I wish I had someone that did. But I really did appreciate the shoulders I got.
So what else? A ton I guess. I don't feel like typing anymore though. I don't want to say I'm going to update more, cause who knows. But I'd like to try. I wanna take a little nap before I go to the gym... So maybe I'll see ya... sooner or later..
Peace.