i can't stand him.
i can't believe that guy can make me mad even when i don't even like him anymore!
i know, i know, its my own fault for still having any kind of connection with him. it just bothers me that he can act like he does and want what he does over reasons that are so untrue and misplaced ideas that are simply crazy. i mean, if he could still be this way after he has all the facts straight, that would be fine. it wouldn't bother me then. and i know that by trying to tell him that these reasons are off, it just gives the impression that i'm begging or something.
today's episode i found out that he doesn't want to be friends, not because he isn't over stuff yet (which i could understand), he doesn't want to be friends because he thinks i did something in the past to show i can't be trusted. i have done nothing but care about the guy since day one! what could he possibly be talking about? i tried tactfully to find out but i think it just looked like i was trying to convinse him to be my friend or something pathetic like that. which it definately would not have looked like that if he didn't have to go when he did. he ultimately chose the worse spot in the conversation to leave. probably did that on purpose.
oy. other news. last night i went to go see "grindhouse" with brian from work. he brought his friend along who had wicked bad breath, he smelled like fish. i sat between the two in the theater and i hope brian didn't notice me leaning towards him so much, i just wanted to get away from his friend. anyway, it was a good movie especially the end.
today i don't have to be to work until 5. i'm meeting brian for lunch in a bit and at some point i am definately going running.
i have been trying to find clubs to join or stuff to do during my free time away from work. so far nothing. i was already doing this for a long time before but adam made the same suggestion last i spoke to him. i figured i would call him back when i have good news. i think its going to be a long time in calling him at the rate i'm going. i hope he won't be disapointed when i call and the situation still hasn't changed.
maybe there is a karate class or something i could take. that might be too expensive though. this is frustrating.
i know, i know, its my own fault for still having any kind of connection with him. it just bothers me that he can act like he does and want what he does over reasons that are so untrue and misplaced ideas that are simply crazy. i mean, if he could still be this way after he has all the facts straight, that would be fine. it wouldn't bother me then. and i know that by trying to tell him that these reasons are off, it just gives the impression that i'm begging or something.
today's episode i found out that he doesn't want to be friends, not because he isn't over stuff yet (which i could understand), he doesn't want to be friends because he thinks i did something in the past to show i can't be trusted. i have done nothing but care about the guy since day one! what could he possibly be talking about? i tried tactfully to find out but i think it just looked like i was trying to convinse him to be my friend or something pathetic like that. which it definately would not have looked like that if he didn't have to go when he did. he ultimately chose the worse spot in the conversation to leave. probably did that on purpose.
oy. other news. last night i went to go see "grindhouse" with brian from work. he brought his friend along who had wicked bad breath, he smelled like fish. i sat between the two in the theater and i hope brian didn't notice me leaning towards him so much, i just wanted to get away from his friend. anyway, it was a good movie especially the end.
today i don't have to be to work until 5. i'm meeting brian for lunch in a bit and at some point i am definately going running.
i have been trying to find clubs to join or stuff to do during my free time away from work. so far nothing. i was already doing this for a long time before but adam made the same suggestion last i spoke to him. i figured i would call him back when i have good news. i think its going to be a long time in calling him at the rate i'm going. i hope he won't be disapointed when i call and the situation still hasn't changed.
maybe there is a karate class or something i could take. that might be too expensive though. this is frustrating.