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Today was a fun day. Well, mostly.
I spent the day with HK and her family- that was a blast. I'm happy that I'm slowly starting to shirk the unease that usually plagues me when I'm in the presence of families- especially such close families. We joked around about damn near everything- including while we were having dinner at "the table". HK's brother made both of his grandmothers spin in their graves. That takes talent. I had a blast chilling out on the pool deck with HK and her dad listening to classical rock and dying Easter Eggs. Oh, we mustn't forget about the pretzels and hummus. Crucial part of my work out-killing diet. Oh yeah, we tanned too. HK was most successful than I- big surprised. Me and my European blooded self. Sheesh.
It's getting harder and harder as my Dad's anniversary comes closer. Every year I think I've finally mastered it. I think I finally have started to get over it and let live. Some years are better than others- this year? Not. With my graduating college with an AS degree and joining the Navy- essentially having two graduations... it's worse than it's been in awhile. It's like two more high school graduations that he isn't here for. And that sucks.
I went with HK to her friend's grave site. I did my best to be supportive because I knew she needed it. But in the end, I felt like a useless rag doll. How can I help someone else cope when I have issues coping myself? Awesome.