I try to be
I try to be considerate, kind, compassionate, grateful and humble. But sometimes I treat people wrong, sometimes I get mad and say things I don't mean. Sometimes I snap at people when they're helping me. Sometimes I'm a little too confident. Sometimes I'm a little too heartless and inconsiderate.
But I've paid my dues too.
Don't forget that I've been treated like shit, betrayed, lied to, trash talked and snapped at too.
Even when I get down real low, I try to remind myself of all the things I should be- and "low" is not one of them.
I try to be smart and studious. I try to work hard and sometimes I forget to take time for me. I don't put on make up in the morning because I'm rushing to catch the shuttle to school. I don't have time to put effort into things like make up and outfits. Remember, I'm running on four hours of sleep. I try to support myself without the help of others and it's never easy. Sure, I'd like to maintain my nails and hair. But sometimes buying a little extra food or nicer shampoo is more important.
With that said, I think I've done just fine.
Maybe I've taken too much of a bite out of life. Maybe I am not smart or studious. Maybe my goals are unrealistic. But even when I feel like I'm failing every day for weeks on end, I have to remember the people who made me who I am today.
Life isn't about finding yourself. It's about creating yourself.
You're only as strong as you think you are,
the friends that have your back,
and the things you let bring you down.
So even if you're on your knees, you have to look up and find something to fight for. Because we were given knees to fall on but feet to get back on.