What I want...

[somethingspekal]

It's almost three in the morning and I've had another dream about my "perfect man". I started running through all the things I want out of "him" and decided I'd journal about it. Why not? I'll look back on it and see if I've got more to add or take off. Who knows.

And I probably don't deserve half this, but I'm going to hold to it anyway.

I've watched a friend's boyfriend roll out the red carpet for her-- and that is where my standard now lies.

My perfect man

I want someone who doesn't mind my decision to wait. And won't pressure me.

I want someone who appreciates the fact that I don't cheat or lie.

I want someone who I am physically, intellectually and emotionally attracted to.

I want someone who doesn't act like he's above me.

I want someone who realizes I don't need him, that I'm perfectly fine on my own- but he wants me anyway.

I want someone who sends me goofy or sweet text messages randomly.

I want someone who doesn't light my temper up like the Fourth of July.

I want someone who gives me butterflies.

I want someone who is just as brutally honest as I am.

I want someone who is just as fiercely loyal as I.

I want someone who appreciates the little kid in me but recognizes I am no child.

I want someone who doesn't have to know what my nightmares are or what has happened to me in the past. That's to say, I want someone who will listen when I'm ready to talk.

I want someone with a family.

I want a southern gentleman.

I want him to be taller than I am. [I have a serious thing with height, don't ask.]

I want a lover of the arts, a respecter of the military, an appreciative citizen and a compassionate person.

I want someone who isn't afraid to defend me.

I want someone who knows I can defend myself.

I want someone who is protective, not controlling/jealous/over bearing/irritating.

I want someone who knows when to back off and when to fight harder.

I want someone who can make me laugh out loud.

I want someone who I can be a total idiot with and it be okay, because he knows I'm intelligent.

I want someone I can wear sweat pants, a swear shirt, jacked up hair and no make up with-- and it be okay.

I don't want to be told "go get cute".

I don't want any baggage- from either one of us.

I want someone I can finally trust.

I want someone who is of the same religion as I, who understands the way I feel about my religion and who isn't a hypocritical, bible thumping ass hole.

I want someone who knows that it's God's judgment not ours.

I want someone who is intellectual but not holier than thou.

I want his family to love me and accept me.

I want someone to travel the world with.

I want him to be my best friend- even if I don't need another.

I want him to be as passionate as I am.

I want someone who is okay with the fact that I might or might not make more money than he will.

I want someone as curious and adventurous as I.

I want someone who doesn't check out women in front of me.

I want someone who will go sky diving with me.

I want someone who doesn't mind my classical music, my country music, my indie music, my pop music, my rock music, my hard rock music, etc.

I want someone who loves books as much as I!

I want someone who understands my poems/songs.

I want someone I can show my poems/songs to.

I want someone who doesn't smoke and doesn't drink heavily.

I want someone who respects me.

I want someone with ambition.

I want someone who thinks I'm gorgeous inside and out- even if I don't.

I want someone who understands my Big Ex issues and doesn't let it bother him.

I want someone who understands it's a military thing.

I want someone who wants to take care of me, even if I won't let him.

I want someone who sees I'm prideful and sees when I'm crossing a line- and put me back in line.

I want someone who takes responsibility for what he's done, who knows when I'm mad and to what degree, who knows when to tell me to stop being angry, and who will apologize for what he did wrong.

I do not want some party hardy boy.

I want someone who does what they say they're going to do.

I want someone who has their life straight.

I want someone who wants me and who cares.

I want someone who will pull me back when I push away.

I want someone who can take care of himself, but isn't afraid to let me in too.

I want someone who makes me feel safer than anything in the world.

I want someone who is completely imperfect- but I see him as perfect.